It's getting too late to get better.

[Aceso]

I don't even know what to do anymore.
I've overdosed, underdosed, cut, purged, haven't slept, drunk or eaten, burned, and pretty much everything else possible.
Today I cleared out my room, completely. I ripped up every photo of me as a kid, every birthday card I'd saved since I was a baby, all my school books and possessions, childhood books, binned anything I couldn't break. It felt so good, and so painful. I didn't want to hold onto anything I care about, I just wanted to forget everything, clear away any memories so when I went it'd be like I was never there in the first place. My room is almost completely empty.
I've been pulled out of school again, but I'm so exhausted. I'm sleeping for days at a time and I'm still waking up exhausted. I haven't been happy for weeks and I feel like I'm just sitting alone in my room watching the days pass, like a ghost. I haven't seen any friends, or spoken to anyone for weeks. Nobody cares about me anymore and I'm trying so hard but it's not getting any better. I just want to be able to hug someone and be able to tell them everything from beginning to end, but I can't even do that on here. I want to know things get better. They just don't.
I don't do anything at all, I don't have any hobbies or sports or anything like that. I just want to escape, and to be honest I don't think I'd care if I died anymore. It's so appealing. I don't really have anything to stay here for and I was right when I said everyone gets tired of me in the end. When I try to think of the future it just seems dull, gray and long. I don't know what else to do, I feel like it's too late for me to get better really. I can't see how anyone would care for me at all, and I can't even walk into a room without thinking of ten ways I could kill myself anymore. I just want to be able to be stronger but I can't do this anymore. I just don't know what to do.
Sorry for yet another rant, I just need to get this off my chest. :(

[LyaJen]

That's a lot like what i feel like. The other day i slept the entire day.
But i think you should find something to do. like painting, or writing or drawing.
Just have hope. All you can do is HOPE.

[RedViper]

It's never too late to get better. There's always a chance to get better. I'm always here if you need to talk, although i can't PM yet

Also, things that helped me were distractions, any distraction. Like said above, Art or writing. For me it was mostly being with friends and really loud music. Just try to distract yourself in any way

Please don't double post, use the edit button to edit your original post -FullyAlive

[nobody091]

You shouldn't give up, its never too late. You should really speak to someone, I think that there are many people on this forum just like you, who would be willing to speak to you and who will actually understand you (that's what most people cant and don't want to do and it is irritating me pretty much right now) and http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lkuupguZLA1qf7fvb.jpg
is all i can do for you right now and well, you can speak to me if you want, that always works from my own experience.:)

[Aceso]

That's a lot like what i feel like. The other day i slept the entire day.
But i think you should find something to do. like painting, or writing or drawing.
Just have hope. All you can do is HOPE.
I've tried, the thing is I get out a pencil and I can't even think what to draw or where to start. I just lose motivation.

It's never too late to get better. There's always a chance to get better. I'm always here if you need to talk, although i can't PM yet. Also, things that helped me were distractions, any distraction. Like said above, Art or writing. For me it was mostly being with friends and really loud music. Just try to distract yourself in any way.
Thank you. :) I don't have any distractions like I said, I don't have the motivation or inspiration to write or draw :(


You shouldn't give up, its never too late. You should really speak to someone, I think that there are many people on this forum just like you, who would be willing to speak to you and who will actually understand you (that's what most people cant and don't want to do and it is irritating me pretty much right now) and
is all i can do for you right now and well, you can speak to me if you want, that always works from my own experience.:)
I just feel like I've been living like this for too long to change. I see three counsellors, I really like one but she can't be here when I need her most. Thanks for the hug, I need it. Likewise you can always inbox me if you need. :)

[RedViper]

Hmm, What about going to see friends or something like that?

[DecemberGirl]

Hey its okay i so under stand what you are going through. evry day i wake up and think is this the day it is all over? but every day i am just as sad or sadder and empty. i think if you have to have a friend its one who will understand your pain.

[Wayne92]

Dont be like this, I know you will get better. Never lose hope, especially when there are people who still believe in you and love you... like me for example.