I think I might be anorexic??

[dreamer18xx]

To start off I always had trouble with myself look wise and I absolutely just hate myself I have self harm issues and attempted suicide in the past I lost extremes amount of weight when I was depressed and gaining it all back was kind of a shock for me I hated it and I felt fat. I accepted that I needed to gain it though but recently I haven't been to accepting I look in the mirror and just see fat everywhere I hate it I feel disguisting. I haven't eaten in 6 freakin days :c and I'm so sad I want to eat I really do but every time I eat I feel soo guilty like it wasn't worth it. Its pathetic but I cry over this I don't want a ED and I can't understand why I feel unhappy eating. I hop on the scale more than 5 times a day and my bmi is 16 I'm started to get really scared I don't like this at all.

[xXoblivionXx]

It sounds like you may have an ED. I want you to know that you are beautiful the way you are. It's the inside that counts, not some number on a scale.

[Gigablue]

It sounds like you may have anorexia. You should tell your parents or your doctor about it. They will be able to help you get through this. You will need the help of a therapist but it is possible to get over it. In the mean time, you need to eat. I know it is hard, but going six days without eating is unhealthy. A BMI of 16 is underweight and can pose significant health risks. It may help if you weight yourself less as well. Get help as soon as you can.

[dreamer18xx]

I can't help it it's the first thing I do in the morning I weight myself and I want to eat soo so bad it makes me sad but I just can't my mind screams at me no. It makes me so scared I dont understand and I want help but I'm scared people will force me to eat

[Gigablue]

I can't help it it's the first thing I do in the morning I weight myself and I want to eat soo so bad it makes me sad but I just can't my mind screams at me no. It makes me so scared I dont understand and I want help but I'm scared people will force me to eat

It's good that you want help. People can't force you to eat. They will help you feel better about eating and your weight. Don't be scared of getting help, it might be hard, but it will pay off in the long run.

[dreamer18xx]

They can when your underweight and my mom most likely will watch me until I do eat she did it when I was depressed and not hungry. :c I'll try to get help eventually but I'm so scared right now I seriously can't eat. I tried to go downstairs before to get maybe a little something but my hands wouldn't let me.

[EmptyBottle]

It does sound like you have an ED. I would talk to a therapist or parent.

[dreamer18xx]

Yeah I think so too I tried really hard to eat last night to say screw you eating disorder I can eat what I want.....but it didn't work and I purged. It's so frustrating!

[flumeendeavors]

Kristi, you have an eating disorder. Let me tell you something though, its NOT worth it. I was diagnosed with anorexia when i was 12 and after years of starving and purging, i messed up my esophagus, i have an irregular heartbeat, i constantly hyperventilate, im always freezing cold, i *almost* lost the ability to have children.. ever, my vision got a lot worse, i lost my friends (even my closest ones) because they didnt know how to fix me anymore, i had a terrible relationship with my family, and the worst one of all is that i have FAI, a severe joint disease that is in both my hips because of my malnutrition and i have to get major surgery for them now which will leave me on bed rest for a long time. I also had to watch my little sister grow up watching me getting sicker and sicker and eventually get admitted to a hospital where she came to see me, at 3 years old and i had to tell her it was because "my brain was sick". Im healthy now but recovery was the best thing ive ever done for myself. It wont EVER matter how skinny you are to everyone else, you will still see yourself as fat and disgusting. Thats what happens when your brain is sick, it makes your eyes sick too, making you see something that isnt real. I am completely willing to help you through this hun. (: I care about you and remember, youre not dealing with this alone. <3
Talk to me anytime. Ill tell you my story and give you advice. (: <3