i didn't think i'd take it this hard.

[Jupiter]

I was aware that people don't like me. I knew this.

But then when someone made me aware that they don't, it really hurt me. I took it way harder than I did.

I thought I was getting better. I texted my friend Giuliana that I thought I was getting healthier. I had a good play practice, then went out to eat after. During the dinner, I was informed that two kids were killed on a road that I HAD JUST BEEN ON not 2 days before. That could have been me.

The next day I found out my fish that Maggie bought me had died. I took that well.

But today I found out that my rabbit Sarah died. I had her for four years. She was.... old. I understand that she was six and that she had to go sometime, but I can't help but think that whenever I don't stay at home, something bad happens. Last time we moved out for a while, my dog Molly died. But anyway I was like ok, let's go bury the rabbit. Since I'm at my grandma's, I asked my brother to put the rabbit in a bag and out of the fucking heat. This was at 10 am. Well, when we got there at three, guess what he hadn't done. I had to bag the rabbit with lots of flies. Then I had to bury her ALONE.

And then I got into an argument with a good friend of mine, who told me that I could fuck off, I could have a good or terrible life, that he didn't care, and then proceeded to tell me that lots of people don't like me. I feel like such a failure. I only want to be liked. I just want people to like me. I just want to be another face in the crowd. But I'm not.

I just want to die. Why the fuck am I still here? I don't want to kill myself, but if nature doesn't do it, looks like I have to anyways.

[james wolf]

Don't kill yourself, although people seem to not like you they will still be deeply affected by your death. You will make them, your family and anyone else around you feel guilty, sad and angry.

Life doesn't always go your way, but if you persevere through the bad moments good ones will always be around the corner. Just remember, you are only here once so have fun, and let others have fun. Live and let live.

[Wonder.]

I'm not trying to sound like "poor me" or anything but next school year, I'm probably going to be eating lunch alone for the first week or two because the only true friend I ever had is moving next month, so, the point is, be happy you have SOME people who like you. I've had people hate me before - before they even knew me. Just because of the way I dress.

Honestly though, if it might means anything to you, I actually do like you from other posts I've seen of yours. You really just have to not care what other people think because at the end of the day, you still have your friends who would be very upset if you weren't here anymore. Please - DO NOT KILL YOURSELF. You're fifteen so you only have three years until you go to college. I really do believe you can make it there. Death isn't going to help you, it's not going to change what people think of you, that's up to you. But again, you have to not care what people think.

And, I'm sorry you had to experience so much death lately. For me, just taking one death at a time is bad enough. I can't even imagine how you feel.

[Jupiter]

It was weird to me, because it was like nothing could calm me down.

[Breakeven]

awww hun , plz dont think like that :( :hug: im here if u wanna talk about anything

[Jupiter]

why couldn't i have been in that accident instead?!

[Jupiter]

well, i managed to stay away from the alcohol, but after that post....

[Incompris]

Common stay strong, I am so sorry what happened to you. If you ever need to talk I am here.

[Jay_Team_Swagg]

^ Yes, life has its ups and downs but you just have to hold on for the ride. Killing yourself wont solve your problems. It will just end them. How could killing yourself make people like you. Your friend was heated at the moment, he probably didnt mean the fuck off and no one likes you. It's not hat others think of you, it's what you think of yourself that counts. They cant change you, make you better or worse, stronger or weaker. Its YOU!! Life is a game, and your the controller.

[Skeptical Bear]

Shut up with the fucking suicidal thoughts! You're only 15 for fuck sakes!!! You got all adulthood to make new friends and have a life. So what you have a bit of drama in your life, your a teenager. Every teen feels this way at least once in their lives. You're still young. Don't waste your life and be optimistic about it!

Bro. Calm down. That's not how you talk to someone who's going through any type of sad situation.

And Deirdre. I don't know you that well, but I've seen you here and there in the forum and I want to try and help. I'm sorry about all of this first of all. I know it's not easy to have all of this happening to you so fast and then you feel like no one likes you. But, I don't think EVERYONE dislikes/hates you. We'll all have people in life that'll hate our guts to the point of death and we can't do anything about it. So, there's nothing wrong with you. It's just how life works. Some people just don't click that easily. It's not that easy to fit in the crowd and have everyone like you. I think it's impossible to have everyone like you. What you should do, is be your self. Don't give thought to what people think about you. It's easier said than done. But, towards the end of the day, most of these people that say these mean things to you or don't like you, will most likely not pop up later on in your life. Be around the people who love you and you love you back. Fuck the one's that waste your time to make you feel like crap. There's 7 billion people in this world. I think. And that one person shouldn't matter. He/she shouldn't have to be the reason you feel like you're worthless shit because they're more than that for making you feel like that. Think about all this well. I hope this helps you the most it can. Get better :)

[Jay_Team_Swagg]

Shut up with the fucking suicidal thoughts! You're only 15 for fuck sakes!!! You got all adulthood to make new friends and have a life. So what you have a bit of drama in your life, your a teenager. Every teen feels this way at least once in their lives. You're still young. Don't waste your life and be optimistic about it!

Didn't even see this, what are you thinking. Calm down, if he had suicide thoughts, you wouldn't be able to understand the mental anguish he's probably going through. Completely inappropriate. Post reported

[BrassMonkey]

Please dont think this, I know times get tough, believe me, I know. Just dont think that kind of stuff, suicide is not the way to go. Look, bad things happen, bad things happen to good people. Just keep your head up high, and just live your life. Friends come and go, people die, animals die, its life, we cant do anything about it even though you want to. Just because all of that ^ happens doesnt mean you have too. I have had friends, family, and pets die. My own father has had cancer too, and was cancer free for a while after the surgery, but they found something again. Our cars keep messing up, and I have all kinds of friend and family drama going on too. When hard times come, I just try to keep my head up high and think positive thoughts and have fun even though its hard too. Just keep Your head up high, live your life to the max, and just have fun even when its hard to.

[Jupiter]

thanks guys.

i suppose this thread has had it's run, so.. yeah.