F'd for life?

[dajakesta10]

Right, so when I was about 10 years old, I stayed round my guy friend's house (We're both guys, we were young). We both had a great night and went to bed at about 2 in the morning. I actually got to sleep quite quickly, though woke up shortly after with what seemed at the time as just a small experiment, but the more I think about it, the more I realise that actually changed my life forever. So basically, I woke up with my trousers down, my penis in his hand and his tongue in my mouth, kissing my sleeping lips. I went along with it, of course. It was one of the greatest feelings, that I had the pleasure of feeling multiple times with him. The feeling of his fully naked chubby skin against my chest really got me off. This happened quite a few times before eventually his mum walked in of us in the 69 position at the age of 11. I haven't been allowed to stay round his house since, but thankfully my parents weren't informed. It was only later that year that I found out what it was really about, as I wasn't well educated on homosexuality at a young age, so I just thought it was playing. It turns out my friend had been abused multiple times by his now absent father, but he missed the kind of things he did with him. I felt guilty when I first found this out, but we haven't speaking in the last 2 years, anyway. It's only now, that I realise that those little games might've had a bigger impact. So it's now that I finally come to my question - Could it just be the hormones that are making me crave the feeling of bare skin? Because I don't want to live knowing that there is a possibility I could grow up to be a paedophile :/ Could this just be a passing phase or am I actually f'd for life?

[Lyra Heartstrings]

I think your hormones are going. I don't believe this made you a pedophile. But yeah, it's probably hormones. Could you be gay? Maybe. That's for you to figure out.

[Enormous]

I'm not sure what you mean when you say there's a possibility you could "grow up to be a paedophile". Could you please explain this?

[therunaway]

Your hormones are just on a rage, I don't think you'll go grow up & be a pedobear. You may be homosexual though, but that's your decision.

[dajakesta10]

I'm not sure what you mean when you say there's a possibility you could "grow up to be a paedophile". Could you please explain this?

What I mean is that I feel a compulsion towards children, as he was back then. This was 5 years ago and it's getting worse.

[boonsim]

Umm, he molested you in your sleep. That's really really bad, but probably didn't make you into a pedophile.

[wolfguy]

dude hormoens but good luck is all i can say

[farmer42296]

I would say tht ur hormones are just stirred up

[Jay_Team_Swagg]

I'm not going to lie, out of that whole story, I thought you would ask about you being emotionally corrupted, or even him growing up to do the actions his father did to him to other children. Yet you asked about hormones, so I'll answer your question. It is perfectly fine you liked the feeling of his skin on yours. It could have been hormones or testosterones. But it is perfectly normal.

[Lovemeorleaveme]

Dude the fact u like the feeling of naked skin means only that you've hit puberty and your not asexual, your having sexual urges, we all have sexual urges. A pedo is a adult who has sexual feelings for kids, you nowhere indicated that youre turned on by little kids.

[Short Circuit]

What I mean is that I feel a compulsion towards children, as he was back then. This was 5 years ago and it's getting worse.

If your already being drawn towards young boys, then I would suggest you talk to some proffesional person about it.

[loganbenson]

Your fine...just make sure everything you do is legal :p