Harm/anger/fighting

[PwnDGamer]

Well, i recently discovered i am Bi, so after all this i rember the bad rap i gave to the homosexual and bisexual community, so i am depressed because i feel i can't chose, they can't either, the self harm comes in when i start liking my best friend, its angering me because i feel right about this, but i can't pinpoint it, but i feel wrong, i did alot of research about being gay, mostly in the holy bible, nothing is wrong, but sterotypes make it seem wrong... and i am busting my knuckles on walls, ect.

[Stryker125]

Just chill dude. You are who you are, and you like what you like. Also, you should remember that you're 14 and still in the earlier stages of puberty. Hormones are insane at this point, so you shouldn't worry about labeling yourself at this point. Just relax and spend time trying to figure yourself out. And then learn to be okay with who you are.

[PwnDGamer]

but i cannot be myself, society forces perfection in these places, they all want a man and a women, i only want someone i love, and i feel pain that i don't want to feel, so punching wall numbs that pain, and pain in my knuckles makes me feel good, and makes me feel numb, its the best feeling ever, and i bleed and my dad kicks my ass from seeing my knukles, and whats worst is my mom or my bro will say, he is punching walls, and i wasn't and i almost got beat, and i told my dad to piss off and i walked away

[Mortal Coil]

That's not true. There is a large part of society that doesn't care whether you choose a man or a woman, and you should learn to be part of that section :hug:

[Listed MIA]

That's not true. There is a large part of society that doesn't care whether you choose a man or a woman, and you should learn to be part of that section :hug:

agree. maybe there is some kind of LGBT youth group in your area where you can go and hang out with people who understand and accept you?

be careful punching things. there are tons of tiny bones in your hands and they can easily get broken. you can get a pair of boxing gloves and hand wraps for cheap. maybe get a punch bag or some hook and jab pads if you've got someone who will hold them for you. (sometimes they are called focus pads)

its not a good idea to try and numb your problems, you need to address them. (i should totally take my own advice)

[PwnDGamer]

i actually love pain, not a big boxing glove kinda guy, i also love the sensation of blood running down my hand, hate the attention though, and i cannot adress my sexuality, that would make alot of people, including my family, hate me, they hate anyone that isn't straight, the only reason the think i am straight is because i act straight...

[ColourMeScarred13]

You should not feel ashamed of the person you are, and nobody should ever judge you for that. Be your own person and maybe try and find another way to let your anger out. Like getting a punch bag or something or try keeping a dairy (this always helps me whenever I feel depressed or angry) but don't think that they hate you because they don't. It's a hard thing to accept sometimes but given time you'll feel better and will have more confidence. xxxx