I always said I wouldn't

[I'm cool like spongebob]

All my thoughts are being eaten up by one word now...suicide. I have always seen it as giving in but now I'm not to sure. I wonder what it would feel like to jump of that building and leave everything behind. I'm not a religious person but I think there could be some life after death. This is the one and only thing that stops me from doing it. The thought that I might have to go and suffer somewhere else instead just makes me thing what's the point. It's not my life that is bad it's me. I have realised that there is no choice whatsoever. Not one little bit. I drive myself crazy because I do not like who I am. I'm not a ver nice person and I realise things tht I'd rather not. You may say well just be nice then but It's a lot harder than it sounds. The badness is embeded within me. If I knew there was no life after death I'd do a few things I've always wanted to then jump. Maybe thats why we never know.

[Sapphire]

I know it is difficult to change our behaviour and attitudes. But it is possible. It just takes time. So, take the time. Change little things. If you can spot a cycle of behaviours that is bad for you or those around you then make a concerted effort to break that cycle.
There is always hope.

[greger92]

killing your self would be a very stupid thing. This is just a stage that you will pass. There is so much in life you will want to expirience and you'll miss out on it. Because u beleive in an afterlife, (christian/catholic) heaven is cool, hell is forever expiriencing the worst pain you could ever feel, FOREVER. Killing your self would send you to hell. Dont kill urself.



P.S. If you think you are going to do it, get high and drunk and do a lot of cool stuff first