Cutting

[FewSmallBruises]

I usually don't post things on forums like this but I kinda need some help/advice.
For about 2 weeks now I've been cutting myself in my legs. I've been feeling dissociated (I think that's the word) for about a year and it feels like I'm dreaming or watching a movie and nothing's real. But the pain is real. Nobody knows about it and I'm afraid to tell.

The cuts/scars are all over my legs and since it's getting hotter it's hard to hide them and I'm going on a holiday in a month so my parents will expect me to wear a bikini.
I just need some advice on how to hide the cuts but most importantly on how to stop doing this before it turns into a habbit.

Thanks

[Desuetude]

Well if you want to hide them then the best I can say for bikini is make-up, I really don't think you have any other options. Try a layer of concealer, then foundation then put hairspray on top of it to keep it waterproof and stop if from rubbing off. You can do that a few times, although it won't make them totally invisible it might help make them a little less noticeable. Also if you want to help fade scars then get Vitamin E capsules, open them and rub the oil into your skin, that should help as well.

It's good that you're willing to stop now before it gets to far along. Distract yourself when you get the urge, also try to prevent urges as best you can so if it was a certain person that makes you feel the need to cut then try and avoid them. Other coping mechanisms to take the place of cutting could be exercise (doing something that wears you out), drawing, painting, writing things down (maybe in the form of a short story, poem, diary?) cooking, photography, just something you enjoy. Also talking to someone and getting everything out tends to take a lot of weight off your own shoulders. Is there a good friend, counselor at school you could go to? Even someone off VT, keeping everything to yourself although might feel like the right thing to do is the worst because in the end when you can't contain those negative emotions anymore they all come out at once.