Suicide Note

[xXoblivionXx]

Right now you are confused, why would she do this? Why would she kill herself? She was only fourteen years old she had her whole life ahead of her. Looking over her corpse you see scars all over her forearms and thighs. To you these scars mean nothing, to her these scars measure her perserverance. These cuts and scars tell a story. Many people’s first reaction to scars is that this person is an emo freak that cuts herself. Wrong, so wrong. Most people won’t understand cutting unless they have been through the same thing. Conquering pain with more pain? That doesn’t make sense. That is pretty twisted logic, defeating pain with more pain. But if you think about it it does make some sense. All of the pain and hardships that you have been going through makes you numb, it changes you. You have you pinch yourself in order to keep yourself together. But that pinch soon becomes a scratch, then a cut, from that point on the cuts get bigger and deeper. You are trapped in reality trying to keep yourself in one piece, trying to not conform. But after a while you forget who you are, you lost yourself in the fight to be yourself. Once you are lost things just keep getting worse and worse. Still pondering her suicide? Let me tell you something. This girl has gone through so much, more than anyone her age has to go through. She felt like such a disappointment. All she wanted to do was please her parents. But in the end all she wanted to do was to end the pain. Too many nights spent crying herself to sleep. Too many morning spent wishing she was dead. But the worst was too many fake smiles that she put on her face. There are tons of reasons why she ended her life. She was depressed and felt like no one cared, after awhile she began to not care. I want you to take a good long look at her and try to look at things from her perspective. She wanted to run, she wanted to leave so bad but something kept her here. Maybe if she did run then she would still be alive but that doesn’t matter now. For the past year or so she has been feeling depressed and alone, maybe she didn’t want people to bother her but it hurt. It hurt feeling sad and neglected. She doesn’t want a funeral or anything, she wants to be turned to ash and thrown away. She hates her body and she hates herself. I don’t want anyone to judge her for her actions, no one really knows her, I don’t really know her. That girl laying on the ground with a knife sticking out of her chest, that’s me.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

OH MY GOD , please!!!!!!! DONT! I WISH I WAS THERE IN FRONT OF YOU. ID TAKE THE KNIFE AND END MYSELF TO SAVE YOU. IF YOU DO IT IM NEXT!!!!!!

[EvilB]

Uhh I can't delete on iphone

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

That knife would actually have to be stabbed in multiple times. One knife wound won't kill you usually unless you take it out and bleed to death. But you said its sticking in

dont give her advice. JUST GIVE ME IT AND ILL TAKE ME FOR YOU. PLEASE.

[EvilB]

They make medication for this

[Error 404]

Don't try to kill yourself :( Seriously...there are people who care for you, and even if you're feeling depressed, it can get better...

Life can be beautiful, as well as it can be painful, just keep going, and stuff will get better.It's not easy, but it's worth it.

[EvilB]

Don't try to kill yourself :( Seriously...there are people who care for you, and even if you're feeling depressed, it can get better...

Life can be beautiful, as well as it can be painful, just keep going, and stuff will get better.It's not easy, but it's worth it.

Ya if life was good all the time you wouldn't be living. The bad just makes the good better :)

[xXoblivionXx]

I can't do anything until tonight, I can't find my knife, I need to think of a different way.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

I can't do anything until tonight, I can't find my knife, I need to think of a different way.

please dont, give me the knife or gun, whatever it is. idc if you have to mail iit just give it to me.

[xXoblivionXx]

I'm so scared, I have to do this, it's the only way :'(

[Fractured Silhouette]

Why are you feeling this way? That' something that doesn't really make any sense... Maybe you just need to push harder to get through this?

Also, there are many more options available to you other than suicide. Why don't you try to talk to someone? Like your parents? A teacher? Anyone, it's better than being dead. Telling people how you feel could help you feel better. Yes, it's scary, but it's less scary than death. I mean, just don't go and kill yourself please. You don't need to do this.

The point is, Get. Some. Help. You clearly need and deserve to get better and killing yourself isn't the only way at all. Just explore the options, I hope your feeling better when you read this.

[xXoblivionXx]

I feel like a brat turning down everyone's advice but the thing is I have tried so many other options and they haven't worked. I got "help" from a counselor, I've blogged, I've looked for other coping skills. It just isn't working out, I wasn't meant to be.

[Fractured Silhouette]

Yes, but have you tired them all? Death is final, there is no going back. No more choices, no more chances. Do you really want that? Or would you rather have a choice and take a chance and tell someone about how your feeling? Just try talking to your parents, you're probably going to say they won't understand, or get angry and that you don't want to. But think about it, if they realize that you're in agony they might be helpful.

You don't even have to tell your parents, try calling a helpline number. I don't know where you live but they're bound to have them where you live. Such as Kids Helpline or Childline, they understand. They help. Some of them have email services if you don't want to talk aswell. The are so many options other than suicide, which is never really an option.

[xXoblivionXx]

-_-

every time some one says it's going to be okay, someone says that things will get better. This happen every time, and every time I listen. But it doesn't get better, maybe temporarily but never permanently.

[Montesquieu15]

That's how it is with a lot of things, like learning a new skill for example. Things get better only "temporarily," but after awhile, it becomes more incorporated until it's permanent.

A tree doesn't grow in a month or even a year. It takes time, but once it does, it becomes magnificent and beautiful.

A lot of people here on VT would be upset if you continue what you intend.
Did you read my messages? just wanted to make sure...

[Fractured Silhouette]

Life is like sailing on the high seas, you never know what the ocean will do next. I can't predict that everything is going to be okay, or get better. That's why I generally don't reassure them as such.

But, it's like this. Say, your the captain of a boat, suicide is sailing off the edge of the map, it's committing yourself down a path that is unforseen and forever. Rather than sail your boat off the edge of the map, wouldn't you rather sail across the harsh seas to reach the treasure you desire. Getting there might be hard, or it might be easy, we don't know this.

It's ok to ask for help from other people to reach your treasure. Communication and cooperation is a vital part of what makes us as humans thrive. Wouldn't you rather be helped by other boats than sail off the edge of the map? Things may get worse before they get better, that's the way life works sometimes. But ending it is not the answer to the problem, it is not the answer to anything.

Sorry to use a corny quote from Batman but:

"It is always darkest before the dawn"

Get help, before you end up doing something you regret.

[thegirlishere]

your 14 for crying out loud
you dont know whats ahead of you
things get better in the end as long as your in for the long run

[Montesquieu15]

I think I know where above post is going.

We're young. There's a lot in this world. But we believe that we're limited to this narrow path. Once you grow older and move out, you're not as limited anymore. Wait till then.

[EvilB]

Have you told your parents about this? if its bullying or anything private school is alot of fun and like 10% of the bullying compared to public school. Please dont do it imagine when you get a job you have your own money can do whatever you want the sky is the limit!

[xXoblivionXx]

Bryson: it's not really anyone from school bothering me but more or less my family. I guess I love them, but I hate them a lot as well.

Thanks everyone. I think I will be alright.

[Smeagol]

:hug: stay strong <3

[EvilB]

;) work hard and have fun in life. Stay strong

[Thunderstorm]

People care for you. People look out for you in the world. You will find that special someone, you have to venture for them. Life is hard. Whoever said life was easy? Well whoever did is stupid and wrong. Life is like starting a new chapter in a book; you don't know what's next.

And in the end, it's only you who can decide what will be written in that next chapter. You may want to accomplish something in the world, leave your mark, and the only way to do that is to write something exciting in each chapter an dtry new things. Those new things aren't death. If the chapter ends at 14, where will your mark be left in this worl? with all the other dead 14 year olds who everyone forgets? No. You are different. You are going to go big places. And we are there to care for you along the way.

[Conner Davies]

y on your phone

[Neverender]

I'm going to be hard on you because I think someone needs to be. Don't take this personally.


You need to wake up. Look around yourself at the beauty of the Natural world. The Universe was not made with you in mind and doesn't care if you take your life. It doesn't care if an asteroid hits us and wipes out this insignificant planet in an insignificant part of an insignificant Galaxy. All the more reason to live another day. Your death would be worthless to the grand scheme of the universe, there's no profit for you. The only way to profit is to thrive and show your enemies wrong.

Because this is it. Once you die, you die. I know your mindset. I've suffered through it before. When you die, you are nothing. Like you remember nothing during the time that you faint, you will know nothing. You will sense nothing. There will not be blackness; there will be nothing. You will die some day. We will all die some day. All the more reason to say "Fuck you" and live the way you want while we're here now.

It is incredibly fortunate that any of us are alive in the first place. Don't ruin it because you selfishly want to end suffering at the cost of those who love you, and those who have to find your corpse.

[Kingbodz]

Stay strong and dont throw your life away.

[Charleigh]

They make medication for this

You really need to be a bit more sympathetic or get the fuck out this forum ok? She's clearly going through her own tough time, and you don't need to be making any 'smart' remarks. Thanks.

Hun things will get better okay? I'm not in the best position myself, but I can honestly say that, sometimes you just need to smile about life because if you don't; who the fuck will?;) Come on hun, pull yourself out of this dark hole your in and climb your way back up, pop your head over the grass and smell the roses. Don't try and escape through suicide, it's not worth it <3

I'm here if you need anything!!

[aanderso_n]

i actually cried reading this :'( please don't do anything to harm yourself, not that these words can change anything your feeling, but i want to know i sincerely pray you can find comfort. I used to cut myself and i thought about suicide almost every day for a long time, and i felt so lost. But i pushed through and now things are so much better. I really mean this, but if you ever need to talk to someone, just PM me. I will always be here if you need me.

and please, we're both too young to be feeling this way, just remember we have A LOT ahead for us, so don't give up <3

i also wanted to say that i think you are very talented. I love photography too and i find comfort in my art. So try venting through creating, not destroying. It helped me. You photographs are beautiful

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