Mental Breakdown

[Gothicdeer]

So my mom got a Kindle and I got psn back....seems good right?....my life seems so good on the outside but really....I need help...I really do...and my pride doesn't allow it...so I remembered this site and I remember how cool you guys are so I decided to vent here...so awhile back I posted something about a girl I was chasing started dating my friend and I found out by seeing them kiss...I got over it because she is a good friend but...a week later I started thinking...she wants to be a shrink when she graduates and I never really thought about it. Well I realized something...all the sweet things she told me was just "make me feel better" sentences. I confronted her bout it and she admitted to it...I mean she made me feel really good but it was all a lie....and during this time my brother and his wife seperated. I mean that dealt didn't bother me cause I predicted it, its the way my family acted about it...constant gossip and badmouthing. My dad still hadn't changed and still acts like a major douche...then...the cake....the one freaking thing I hats...funeral...my great uncle O.L. died...and I remorsed...but it was the family reminding me of how he loved to see me killed me...well I started dating Hannah (a girl I always loved who I messed up with the freshman year...I felt like the whole "friend lying to me" was a set up for this) and she killed herself 2 days ago...it sent me over the edge...I began to think about the real tiny things that happened (that I never mentioned) and along with the big things it all adds up....I had...and it pains me to say cause my pride is saying "shut up man you're tougher than these ass wipes" (no offense)....a mental breakdown about 5 mins ago....sigh...why must I cry....why? I feel worthless when I do...funeral for Hannah tomorrow...I cant do it...I cant

[Thunderstorm]

Yes, you've been through a lot. So have many people here. How do they do it, you may ask? They power through.

You may be sad about Hannah. Although she was your first love, she may not be your only. Hannah will want you to continue to live life. She would want you to become succesful. She will want you to have a family and a good job. She wants you to be happy. Why would she want you to weep over this? If she can power through it, you can. and about your best friend going out with the other girl you liked...a real friend wouldn't have done that. Those lies are in the past. Move towards the future. Life will get better.

[Breakeven]

Im sorry for ur lost , when people end thier lives they dont know how much pain they leave us , i know things are hard right now and its okay to cry and feel sad , but listen i dont know you but i know you are a very strong and u will make it , its gonna take a while but things will get better , hannah would want u to be okay , if u feel u cant handle it alone ask for help , hold on
and all of us here for u :hug:

[Mirage]

We are all here for you with whatever you go through. Please stay here with us. We really just want to wrap you up in a VT bubble so that you can't harm yourself or even think of these things. We want you to be okay. If you need to talk I am always free to VM/PM.

[ShaneSawyer]

ok, i'm sorry but man that sucks, and i am so sorry. what always helped me through a death of a close one was i thought, "hey, what would they want me to do? grieve over them and spend a whole month depressed as shit, or be sad for a few days but then continue your life and have fun and remember the good times.