Why Do I Even Bother?

[Wiltedrose2394]

Why should I even try anymore?
I'm already 18. I have to repeat my senior year cuz I'm credit deficient. When I turn 19, I will lose all of my insurance benefits. That not only includes counseling, but also medication that helps keep me alive. Most notably is a shot for an incurable, extremely debilitating form of arthritis, a shot that I can't even move without. Literally - I am bedridden when I can't take it. I have no money, and no job. The shot alone costs over 1200 bucks a month, and I also have my psych meds that I need. If I'm bedridden and in a psychotic state, that bars me from even trying to get a job. Hell, I don't even know if I'm mentally stable enough stable enough to work as it is. My mom can't help either ; the price of my meds for a month is WELL over twice her income. So many of these issues are all linked together. Something went wrong in my immune system. No matter how hard I try to be healthy, there's always something wrong. I'm just so ready to end this all. It would be so much easier than to suffer through this pain over and over and over again!!!
I just want it to all go away.

[EvilB]

They have health care and government assistance (welfare) for people untill they get on there feet. Sorry about this but it's all I could think of :( hope you get better and figure it out

[Thunderstorm]

Yeah there's some benfits the government can give you. They can definitely save your life. But if you die, just think who will suffer in this world without you. you're family. The woamn who brought you here will suffer the most. Your mom. without you, she has no life. She is here to help you. She wants to see you become succesful. Look at the paralympians who are missing two legs and are playing in the Olympics! use them as your motivation and inspiration. Make your family proud.

[Lolli]

Where there's a will there's a way hunni, you can get financial aid look into ir