I can't go through this again...

[Cognizant]

I know it's stupid, but I can't. I'm crying.

About 4 months ago, I was diagnosed with type 2 herpes. That's when I had my first outbreak... it was the most painful 2 weeks of my life.

Now, I notice during my shower a bump... a familiar bump.. one that I had 4 months ago that ruined any plans I had.
Hey guess what, I have plans on Saturday.
I can't do it again, I really cant. It's caused me too much pain. I don't want to be back on Vicodin.

I really don't know what to do. What happens happens. I just wish it wouldn't happen.

I hate my life.
(I don't know where to put this, so sorry if it doesn't belong here)

[Thunderstorm]

Well, it is a little unclear on what you want. Comfort? I think depression and grief is fine for this. but if you are looking for a stop to this. the VT general Hospital is where you should be.

We all have problems. Like I said on my last post, none of us are perfect. we all make stupid decisions in our life. You got through this 4 months ago didn't you? How? Just remember....and you'll be fine. Go on with your plans.