Officially diagnosed :(

[Carly011]

I was officially diagnosed with Anorexia--purging subtype. It terrifies me to speak those words out loud.

My parents dont know yet, i am telling my mom monday with the help of my therapist. I am terrified.

I still feel a bit of denial, like i really dont have an eating disorder.

There is talk of inpatient or intensive day treatment :(

Im terrified of gaining weight. It makes me want to cry when i think about it.

Hopefully i get the courage to recover.

Has anyone ever done IP for an eating disorder? what was it like?

Does the fear of gaining weight and eating every truly go away?

[Caver]

I'm sorry! Fortunately, I've never experienced an eating disorder. Stay strong and try your best to get better!

[garrettu]

Okay, I'm not the best at the whole therapy thing but I'm going to attempt it. There is no need to worry about gaining weight, usually someone who worries about their figure can keep it in good shape. Purging is never the way to get rid of food. It can absolutely ruin your teeth and esophagus. It would be healthier if you ate the food and not try to get rid of it. I hope this helps if u need me then message me.

[blondebeast]

I am sorry....stay strong!

[LiamC]

Oh my god, really sorry to hear :(

Stay strong, all of us here on VT will be here whenever you need help x

[Carly011]

Thanks everyone! I ended up in inpatient treatment from June 25th to July 2nd. My therapist forced me because of my suicidal thoughts and self harm. If i did not agree she would have called the cops and put a hold on me.

IP did help though, it stabilized my depression at least.

Now wednesday i am going in for heart surgery
then after i get out of the hospital i will start intensive day treatment for my anorexia
Then on July 23rd i will start intensive outpatient for my depression(3hrs, 5 days a week)
I will also be getting a case worker and a dietician.
I will see my therapist weekly, start group therapy and do DBT therapy.

So i will be VERY busy with getting myself healthy :) I also have a potential diagnosis of borderline personality disorder, which explains A LOT of why i am the way i am!

Thanks for the support everyone!

[Fiction]

I've never been in inpatient care for my eating disorder, but I have been too counselling for it, and I have been admitted to hospital twice after overdosing both times, so I can somewhat relate.

My only real advice is to stay strong. Getting help can be stressful, and at the time it can feel as though it's only making things worse, but give it chance. Take all the help you can get. Life can change and things can get better, it did for me. You just have to give it chance, and to do everything in your power to help it along.

Good luck :) I'm always here if you need anyone to talk.

[RemoveMemories]

its terrible you have to go through this but at least you know what it is and its official or you know what to work on to make your life better again

love, peace and light xxxx

[Cognizant]

I'm really sorry to hear! :(
I've never had any eating disorders, but feel free to contact me on here if you need me.

And try not to worry too much, i'm positive things are going to go smoothly and just fine. :)

[aanderso_n]

I'm so sorry to hear that :( i can't relate to anorexia because it hasn't happened to me, but i do understand the weight loss associated with not eating. For a long time i had no appetite at all and could barely eat an orange without feeling full, so i stopped eating and lost a lot of weight. What's more important than quantity is the nutritional value of the food. So eating a lot of healthy food will help you regain a healthy weight and dieting habits.

Stay strong and know that you define beauty for yourself, and don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise.