Cant live any longer

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

I am tired or everything. I lost so many people because of this and im probably going to lose you. i am tired of the fucking pills not working. im ready to raid the store for them all, drink, and smoke till i diefucking blade needs to work now and do it job, just kill me. no more not going through my skin and not bleeding, ill get a new one if i have to. No one understands. IM NOT LOOKING FOR ATTENTION like people think. IM NOT FAKE AND THIS ISNT

[xXoblivionXx]

please Victoria. Don't do this. I know you aren't seeking attention. You are just trying to survive. Don't harm yourself, you didn't do anything wrong. Most people don't understand but some people do. I want you to live a happy life. Please don't do it.

[xaydavis]

You wont lose any of us your a special person you can fight dont do it please dont your a good friend.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

please Victoria. Don't do this. I know you aren't seeking attention. You are just trying to survive. Don't harm yourself, you didn't do anything wrong. Most people don't understand but some people do. I want you to live a happy life. Please don't do it.

thats the thing im not living a happy life. i have been through everything you could imagine.

[xaydavis]

Same here i want we alk want u to live wonderful lifes hey u can do it dont hurt yourself you are only thinking about yourself what about the people around u when u hurt yourself u hurt us your friend and family so thi k about the results u were brought into this world to live a long life dont end it.

[xXoblivionXx]

I know Victoria, it's hard, it really is. But this makes you stronger. I don't expect you to be satisfied with the way things are now but hopefully in the future you will be able to smile and enjoy yourself again. You can do this, once this is over you will be stronger and an even greater person than you already are. But if you end it, if you give in then you won't be able to get better. Dead people don't change.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Same here i want we alk want u to live wonderful lifes hey u can do it dont hurt yourself you are only thinking about yourself what about the people around u when u hurt yourself u hurt us your friend and family so thi k about the results u were brought into this world to live a long life dont end it.

if they will be hurt then they need to show it. even if it takes me being in the hospital i will do it.

[xaydavis]

Now think about that we are your friends talking to u now if we were there now actualy im from millwaukee myself i love to travel before you even dare hurt yourself THERE ARE PRECIOUS THINGS IN THIS WORLD WAITING FOR U not the afterlife life we are young heart to heart we stand we are showing u we are hurting now that we are trying too keep u alive the world would not be the same with ou Uuuuu

[risener]

Okay, listen very carefully. There is no reason why there can't be virtual miracles right? So as you read this, even if you don't believe and think this is stupid, open up, and when you are reading this, you will feel God moving through you to change you forever, He renews vines and he will for you.
You may not be able to stand or feel the need to break down, just be open to it. This is real. Love you

[xaydavis]

Okay, listen very carefully. There is no reason why there can't be virtual miracles right? So as you read this, even if you don't believe and think this is stupid, open up, and when you are reading this, you will feel God moving through you to change you forever, He renews vines and he will for you.
You may not be able to stand or feel the need to break down, just be open to it. This is real. Love you
Everything he says is and will alway
Be true

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

I can't fight. I tried for so many years to not cut, to not take those pills, but I have failed because it all pilled up and I got weaker and weaker every day. I'm sorry but I have to do this maybe not now because I have not reached the resources to do it. I NEED THAT NEW KNIFE AND EVERYTHING ELSE. JUST WANTING TO STOP MAKES THIS CONTINUE ON AND GET WORSE. I wish i could just close my eyes and go to sleep forever.

[xXoblivionXx]

No, please don't stop fighting. You are so strong for making it this far, don't give up now. Things can't get any worse. They can only get better, that's if you are alive, please don't do it, don't kill yourself.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

ive tried to make things better but all thats happened is i lose everything and end up in a deeper hole

[xaydavis]

What have u dneto make things better tell me im ur friend

[usawp420]

u just need to find a way to ignore whatever is troubling you. wherever you are in life itll all blow over and you need to learn to cope with stress in other ways than inflicting pain on top if the pain that your already feeling. u obviously want support otherwise you wouldn't have posted something on a very active yet unknown website saying that no one can stop u from doing what your going to do. if that were the case u wouldn't care if people knew or not.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

tell me im ur friend

????

[Lolli]

You've made it this far in life, don't stop now.
Have you ever been on the other end of someones suicide?
If so then think back to the lIves it effectively ruined.
If not then your so called solve is possibly the cause of another person dying, can you deal with that? If you go and use that way out can you do that knowing others may die because of it? Because from experience one suicide death is never the end and it cripples those around emotional and pushes another over the edge.
Every problem in life has a form of solution and never is the solution someone dying
Please think this through properly
You are someones child and one day you could be parent of your own child, would you sleep easy knowing your child took their own life?

[Thunderstorm]

Victoria, we need you! the world needs you. We want you here. You're only 15 (BTW Happy Birthday) and you still have a full life. You have a lot of time to turn around and change and say I can change and make a difference....

[EvilB]

You should prey and just realise that it gets better and the pills take a lot of time to start working and it's not an overnight thing. And if you off yourself it hurts everyone elce.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

You've made it this far in life, don't stop now.
Have you ever been on the other end of someones suicide?
If so then think back to the lIves it effectively ruined.
If not then your so called solve is possibly the cause of another person dying, can you deal with that? If you go and use that way out can you do that knowing others may die because of it? Because from experience one suicide death is never the end and it cripples those around emotional and pushes another over the edge.
Every problem in life has a form of solution and never is the solution someone dying
Please think this through properly
You are someones child and one day you could be parent of your own child, would you sleep easy knowing your child took their own life?

my great grandma died soon after I gave up but it really didn't effect me because i was never close with her and i knew she was ready like I am

[Baseda]

Dont you do this to yourself. You are still young. You are transitioning still and you can't be sure about death. Don't die. Think about what would happen to your friends and family if you killed yourself. Don't do it. You only life once, use that life well.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Dont you do this to yourself. You are still young. You are transitioning still and you can't be sure about death. Don't die. Think about what would happen to your friends and family if you killed yourself. Don't do it. You only life once, use that life well.

i know i am still transitioning. im tired of having o live as a guy. im finally letting getting the real me out of the shell but no one believes it. i cant wait 3 more years. im ready to do it but im tired of pillls

[Baseda]

I'm tired too. But you have it better than I do. You have come out. My dad would probably disown me if I came out. The pills are there to help you. What I don't understand that much is that are you depressed or something. If you are just do what I do. I lay in my bed and dream my perfect world. After a while I feel much better about everything. It might not work the first times but after a while you will feel much better. If you don't go to a counselor or something. It worked for my friend who was so suicidal that he almost jumped off his house but his dad caught him in mid air. Don't end your life just because of one miserable thing. It has been a bad day NOT a bad life

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

coming out was the worst decision i ever made. because im not accepted is why im going to start self medicating.

[Baseda]

What do you mean you are not accepted . I thought your parents were alright with it?

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

What do you mean you are not accepted . I thought your parents were alright with it?

mom is, dad isnt

[Baseda]

So your dad doesn't approve of your choice. That's a bit scary. I seriously don't want to come out to my parents now.

[Mirage]

So sorry that you have to do this, nobody should be driven to do such things to themselves. Please stay here with us, don't go. We have seen a side of you that warms our hearts so please, PLEASE don't end it all.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

i cant wait for money. i wanna gun