Rant :/

[xXoblivionXx]

I can't believe it, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!! She's pregnant, again. I love my family but I hate them at the same time. They make me feel so insecure and expect me to be perfect. I just can't wait until I get to leave for college. I have always felt secluded from my family but now that my mom is pregnant I don't know if I will be able to manage. I'm going to be the second oldest of 5 children. Why do I have such a big family? I hate things the way they are now let alone with a new baby in the house.

Sorry for the rant, I just needed to get that out.

[Desuetude]

Hey, I know this isn't what you want to hear but there really isn't much you can do. Ultimately it's your parents decision if they want to have kids, all you can do it try to make the best of a bad situation. Spend time with your siblings, maybe this baby can be a good thing, build up a good relationship with him/her from the start and he/she might be able to help you stop feeling so alone. I know it's good to rant and by all means, if it helps, rant away but thinking about the situation as being positive instead of negative is the only way you're going to get something good out of it. It's hard to do but try looking at things from a different point of view.