Calex
June 18th, 2012, 01:16 AM
It's been nearly half year since I stopped cutting. I stop cause of my boyfriend and cause I need to. He told me that every time I would cut, he would cut, which he has never done in his life and has no reason to...I didn't want him to cut cause of me so I started to stop. It was rough, every day I had the urge to cut but he was always there, supporting me and saying not too. I had times where I just couldn't take it...I had the razor right next to my wrist...just when I was about to cut when Jose, My boyfriend, popped in my head and I threw the razor away. That was the first time I ever done that in my life. After that the urges started to go down cause I now had a reason to stop. Not just for him but for myself too. I started to see myself become more...happy and brighter than sad and dark. Right now I feel amazing, my life has gotten better ever since that. I now start hanging out more with my new friends and I can wear short sleeves now too. I look back and see how horrible I was when I cut and I am proud in myself, so is Jose. Sorry for this sort off long story but I wanted to put this cause it is possible to stop cutting, you just got to find your reason and keep that in mine. If you want any help, I am here for you. Don't be afraid to pm me, I will help and I do not judge. I want to help people with whatever problem they have. I like seeing people happy and smiling, it make me happy and I smile when I see someone smile. Again I'm sorry for the long post