Suicide

[xXoblivionXx]

I want to do it. I don't know why but I have to. I can't keep living like this. I'm not good enough for my family and frankly I don't want to be good enough for this family. If they can't accept me for who I am, sucks for them. But I can't keep doing this everyday, I can't keep fighting every day. Because one day I'm going to break and that day was today. I can't do this anymore. I can't cut, I can't speak my mind, I can't breathe, I can't live anymore. Goodbye.

[ackmedsgirl666]

STOP!
look i may not know you but im sure that there are many people on here who cherish you. you have probably just hit a hard spot in life and its a bit of a challenge to get past.. stay strong, be positive look forwRD. steer clear of negativity
seek counceling or something.. yell in a pillow or something
suicide is not the answer.

[Cognizant]

Hold on, now.
I can't say how much suicide is not the answer, no matter what life throws at you.
What's going on that's making you feel suicidal?

[ackmedsgirl666]

Hold on, now.
I can't say how much suicide is not the answer, no matter what life throws at you.
What's going on that's making you feel suicidal?

mainly from what the OP has written its acceptance issues or bullying

[xXoblivionXx]

Hold on, now.
I can't say how much suicide is not the answer, no matter what life throws at you.
What's going on that's making you feel suicidal?

It's my life, it's me. I will never be good enough, why can't my father see that? I'm a screw up and I never want to see my family again. I have messed up every thing with everyone, at school and at home. I just need to end it once and for all.

[ackmedsgirl666]

It's my life, it's me. I will never be good enough, why can't my father see that? I'm a screw up and I never want to see my family again. I have messed up every thing with everyone, at school and at home. I just need to end it once and for all.


trust me there is way to make things better
you just gotta try harder and have patience

[sms22]

DONT DO IT!!! Your life is too precious to give away like that. It doesnt matter how bd things are, there's always a light at the end of the dark tunnel!

[xXoblivionXx]

there is no light because there is no end to this tunnel. I am sick and tired of being depressed and not able to cut. I can't even smile anymore, how can a person forget how to smile? I just need to end this.

[Cognizant]

there is no light because there is no end to this tunnel. I am sick and tired of being depressed and not able to cut. I can't even smile anymore, how can a person forget how to smile? I just need to end this.

I won't let you.
There is always light at the end of the tunnel, and even if you can't see it at the moment, you'll see it eventually.
I highly doubt you are a screw up.
I know i'm not the best at advice like this, but please, please, don't give up so early. :(

[xXoblivionXx]

Yes I am a screw up, you want to know why? Because every time I'm suicidal and I don't do it I just go around in the cycle again. This has happened about 4 times already. I'm like a broken record just repeating itself over and over again. That's because I am broken.

[Lolli]

You are not broken, believe it or not it means you are strong. You know somewhere somehow you have it in you to strive beyond all odds. You could be someone who makes this world different, would you rather be remembered as someone who let go of the bigger chance called life, or someone who grabbed it by the bollocks n yelled come at me bitch?? You don't need to be something perfect just because your family expect you too, they are probably making you down because they did the same or worse. You should succeed for yourself if you truly want to be a success.
Throughout our lives many of us put everyone first, their needs and wants and when we don't give them that we feel worthless. Well correction, we tried, so what if it failed we now know how not to do so in the future, but we tried. That is something to be proud of because really you are only responsible for ourselves. No matter how selfish it sound we are the number ones to ourselves because otherwise there would be no us.
So don't let go. Be who you are meant to be, strong and you. Weakness is letting go strength is considering and stopping yourself

[Thunderstorm]

This world needs everyone in it right now. You are here to help. With out you.....the world won't be as great.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

this reminds myself of my shit. i have so focused on cutting and gender things that this is in the background. and instead of making a new post here. goodbye, time for pills

[xXoblivionXx]

Victoria DON'T! Please because if you do it then I'm going to do it. You don't have to, you don't have to end it.

[Mob Boss]

Like Lolli said, being able to continue makes you strong not weak. I'm not familiar with suicidal thoughts, but I think something in you doesn't want you to do it. It may be a very small part that you're not recognizing, but I think that part of you posted this. No one's perfect. Until I see someone walk on water and heal people with their hands I'm going to say no one's perfect because no one IS. You saying "I have to do it", makes me think you are trying to motivate yourself to do it. You don't have to do it. In fact, you shouldn't do it. What your family expects of you should roll off your shoulders. My dad (I'm sure) would like me to be a genius scientist, but sorry Pops it ain't happening. And like you said "Sucks for them", be you and quit trying to live up to their expectations and beating yourself up when you don't. Once you stop trying to make others happy, and start living for yourself they will either be on board or they won't. They are your family and I'm sure they will love you regardless. This is such a small fraction of your life, being a teen is. You've got so much left to do, people to meet, and things to learn. Don't let anyone drag you down. Try to breath. After I read your post I read your blog. You've got friends that seem to love you and a great head on your shoulders. You said you were after significance not sucess, so got out there and be significant and do it on your own terms and try to live up to your own expectations. This may be a big mess of words, but please think what you could become in this world before you take yourself out of it.