I want to cut again

[xXoblivionXx]

I don't know why. Nothing has really triggered me. Tomorrow I will be 28 days clean. I was looking at my forearm where I use to cut and look at the fading scars. I'm glad they are going away but I don't want them to go away. When I don't cut I feel like I am missing something, missing a part of me. I really want to cut again and bring back the feeling, right now I have begun to recover but I have become numb once again. I need to feel something, for the past 7 months cutting has defined me. Without cutting I'm not me.

[Ambrosia]

Without cutting you are you. With cutting you are a completely different person that you do not need to be. At the moment you are looking at the glass as half empty, not half full. Turn that idea around.

You have made it this far, why not try for 30 days? Keep adding on days every time you make it to a new goal and start promising yourself compensation for it every deadline met.

You can't give up now. You'll regret it so much when you realize you cut for absolutely no reason. Please?

[ackmedsgirl666]

dont give up and stay strong. cutting is a hard addiction to overcome
i thought i had overcome my addiction to sharp objects and blood but whenever i get the slightest bit overwhelmed or stress ill still engourge myself with pain( im not encouraging cutting) im so sorry you feel the way you do. but try and find something else to distract yourself whenever you feel this way.

[xXoblivionXx]

Cutting has become part of me :( I don't know what to do. I don't want to cut but I sort of do. I need to feel the pain, I need to be punished.

[Carly011]

No you dont. you have gone 28 days. I am SO proud of you. Cutting does NOT define you. You are an amazing, nice, funny, pretty, interesting girl, Cutting does not create those things. You ARE you without cutting. Cutting is not you, cutting is a coping skill. You CAN do this. I am SO proud of you

[xXoblivionXx]

I need to cut.

[Fuzzyevil]

Cutting has become part of me :( I don't know what to do. I don't want to cut but I sort of do. I need to feel the pain, I need to be punished.

Why are you harming yourself? For some stupid boy?

[xXoblivionXx]

Why are you harming yourself? For some stupid boy?
No! I cut because of me. I cut because I have went through so many long days of not feeling anything. I cut because of my anxiety and depression. I cut because I made a bad decision and now I'm addicted.

[Fuzzyevil]

No! I cut because of me. I cut because I have went through so many long days of not feeling anything. I cut because of my anxiety and depression. I cut because I made a bad decision and now I'm addicted.

Hurting yourself because you want to taste anxiety and depression is totally stupid! :mad:

[xXoblivionXx]

I never said that! Self harm is a really bad thing, people do it because it they are going through a lot of pain and cutting acts as a pain reliever, it's a way to cope. But it isn't a good way to cope, it's a really bad one. I regret starting self harm but now it's hard to just walk away. When I feel something, it makes my pain caused by all of the shit that I have to go through go away.

[Fuzzyevil]

I never said that! Self harm is a really bad thing, people do it because it they are going through a lot of pain and cutting acts as a pain reliever, it's a way to cope. But it isn't a good way to cope, it's a really bad one. I regret starting self harm but now it's hard to just walk away. When I feel something, it makes my pain caused by all of the shit that I have to go through go away.

Well! I won't say more! Except for one thing! Keep smiling girl! ;)

[Error 404]

Why are you harming yourself? For some stupid boy?

Hurting yourself because you want to taste anxiety and depression is totally stupid! :mad:

Wow...just wow.

"Keep smiling"?...epic...you think that will solve anything?You're totally oblivious.But I'll stop at that, i didn't come here to start arguments, and get banned.

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Urges will be there, for a while...but you have to keep fighting them.

There must be stuff that you don't like, which got you in depression, right?Try to change them...tell you family/counselor what bothers you, and talk about it.You will feel a LOT better after, i know i did.Hell, even on VT...

And suicide (your other topic) isn't the solution.You're 14, you got your whole life ahead of you, to do what you want and love.And every problem can be solved, even if it looks like it can't at the moment.Life is here to enjoy it, and lot of people have depression (including myself), like you.Just keep fighting, and eventually, everything will get better...

Life isn't long, and after it - who knows what there is...

I've tried to kill myself, and it just made stuff worse.And the only reason why i tried it in first place, was because i didn't have enough courage to do and change what is needed.

[Fuzzyevil]

Wow...just wow.

"Keep smiling"?...epic...you think that will solve anything?You're totally oblivious.But I'll stop at that, i didn't come here to start arguments, and get banned.


@Firstly: I am youth writer; and i mostly write on topics like cutting which is most common in teen!

@I think mostly when we (teens) cut our self is due to break ups (Which is kinda common in here). So, i thought she might have cut herself due to some boi! :)! No arguing just telling! :cool:

@Secondly? I have nothing to say more except for keep smiling (lol..a lil weird) ! As i am speechless by her answer! :)

@So, peace out baby!! ;)

[xXoblivionXx]

why are you speechless?

[Error 404]

@Firstly: I am youth writer; and i mostly write on topics like cutting which is most common in teen!

@I think mostly when we (teens) cut our self is due to break ups (Which is kinda common in here). So, i thought she might have cut herself due to some boi! :)! No arguing just telling! :cool:

@Secondly? I have nothing to say more except for keep smiling (lol..a lil weird) ! As i am speechless by her answer! :)

@So, peace out baby!! ;)


Did/do you cut yourself?Assuming stuff, is just plain dumb.I'm here about 2 months, and I've seen maybe 2 people that posted, that cut because of brake up/etc.99% of causes is depression, for various reasons.

Other than that, it doesn't really matter.Everyone's got a reason, and we're here to help, not to assume stuff, but to help stop cutting, or at least get help for it.It doesn't matter if it's because of boy, family, or 1001 other reasons.It all leads to same -> Depression.

"Keep smiling", isn't really a good...well, anything.It won't solve anything, and I've faked that for years.It just gets annoying.

It's obvious that you don't cut, or at least, DON'T understand, i know you're trying to help, but stuff like this:

Hurting yourself because you want to taste anxiety and depression is totally stupid!

Doesn't help, and it's actually laughable.It does just the opposite of helping.

My last post about this, sorry for going off-topic.

[Fuzzyevil]

Did/do you cut yourself?Assuming stuff, is just plain dumb.I'm here about 2 months, and I've seen maybe 2 people that posted, that cut because of brake up/etc.99% of causes is depression, for various reasons.

Other than that, it doesn't really matter.Everyone's got a reason, and we're here to help, not to assume stuff, but to help stop cutting, or at least get help for it.It doesn't matter if it's because of boy, family, or 1001 other reasons.It all leads to same -> Depression.

"Keep smiling", isn't really a good...well, anything.It won't solve anything, and I've faked that for years.It just gets annoying.

It's obvious that you don't cut, or at least, DON'T understand, i know you're trying to help, but stuff like this:



Doesn't help, and it's actually laughable.It does just the opposite of helping.

My last post about this, sorry for going off-topic.

My bad...i posted in here! lol

[Carly011]

@Firstly: I am youth writer; and i mostly write on topics like cutting which is most common in teen!

@I think mostly when we (teens) cut our self is due to break ups (Which is kinda common in here). So, i thought she might have cut herself due to some boi! :)! No arguing just telling! :cool:

@Secondly? I have nothing to say more except for keep smiling (lol..a lil weird) ! As i am speechless by her answer! :)

@So, peace out baby!! ;)



Have you ever actually self harmed? Because, if you have not then you do NOT understand what it is like. It does not matter if you write on it, because until you have experienced you will never understand.

I cut because the emotional pain is to much, physical pain is easier to handle.
I cut because i can control it
I cut to numb myself
I cut to feel something other then said numbness
I cut for relief
I cut to stop my mind from thinking
I cut because i hate myself
I cut because i am ugly, and deserve ugly scars to show it
I cut because i need people to know i am hurting.
I cut because i am addicted
I cut because i am depressed
I cut because i have an eating disorder


Cutting is not enjoyable. It is not something i WANT. It is something i no longer can control. The urge comes over me and i cant stop. I need to stop the emotional pain, so i cut. Quitting is not easy. Cutting is as addicting as drugs.

Cutting is not something you do over some "boy" it is way deeper then that. It is our minds and our emotions that cause it.


Please, dont come here and judge us. Dont assume. We dont need to be judged. We struggle every day. Support, dont judge. And if you cant do that, then leave.



Keep strong Hun!!!! you dont NEED cutting, you CAN do this! i am so incredibly proud of you for lasting so long

[xXoblivionXx]

I NEED TO CUT :(

I didn't stop someone in time and now they are going to commit suicide and I found out that my mom is pregnant.

[Carly011]

I NEED TO CUT :(

I didn't stop someone in time and now they are going to commit suicide and I found out that my mom is pregnant.

Hun. CALM DOWN. That is NOT your fault. Call 911 if you think someone is in danger of hurting themselves. The cops will make sure they are safe. It is NOT your fault, you cant make someone stop.

You dont need to cut. Dont punish yourself over someone else!!!

[xXoblivionXx]

it's my fault, it's all my fault

[Carly011]

it's my fault, it's all my fault

No, NO it is not. Did you tell them to die? No. Did you forcibly shove pills or something down their throat? NO.

Then it is NOT your fault. You cant control others actions. PLEASE call 911 if you think this person is in real danger. That is something you CAN control. That is the ONLY thing you can do, and you NEED to do it. I know its hard, but they thank you later. I had to do it for my brother before, and my brother has done it for me.

[xXoblivionXx]

I don't know her, she's from VT. I can't really do anything. It's just this horrible guilt that I have trapped in me, I need to cut to let it out.

[xXoblivionXx]

Wait... she's online. Oh my gosh, it didn't work. She's alive!

(Sorry for the double post)

[Thunderstorm]

Just think about your self before you cut. When you were younger. that5's when YOU were YOU! Be like that. Just think who has supported you. Their support will be wasted. you need to be happy in life, and cutting is not the solution to that.

[xXoblivionXx]

cutting is the only thing that makes me happy...

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

dont cut. you have been clean for a month? stay that way and keep fighting the temptations and urges.

[Carly011]

Hun, cutting does NOT make you happy. We both know that!!!

And you need to focus on YOURSELF, not others. Especially when they are from VT, because if something DOES happen there is nothing you can do. You cant feel bad for that, because its out of your control

[xXoblivionXx]

Carly, I just want you to understand that I put anyone else's life in front of mine, you want to know why? Because they have a better chance at making something out of themselves or making others happy. I try to help others first so I can help myself second.

[xaydavis]

Your not missing anything u are completewithout cutting things like this are sadning u need to live your life

[xXoblivionXx]

everyone keeps telling me that, I need to live my live. How? I don't know how. I have forgotten what it is like to be happy and how to smile. No one likes me and I'm not good at anything. How can I live my life if I suck?

[risener]

Pray, I'll pray too

[xaydavis]

IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT DID YOU DO EVERYTHING IN YOUR POWER TO STOP THAT PERSON IF U DID THAN YOU DID WELK BUTCUTTING IS NO THE ANSWER YOUR MOM IS GOING TO BRING A RELATIVE INTI THE WORLD U NEED TO BE THERE STOP HARMING YOUR SELF dont uknow when u harm u u harm othets

[RedViper]

I haven't cut in almost a year and a half and i still sometimes get the urge to cut, I've even held a blade to my skin but didn't go through with it. It may not go away completely, but it does get easier. It can be really hard, but in my experience it makes me feel better, in some ways, knowing i haven't cut.

I wish you all the best and i hope you feel better soon

[afergus12]

I don't think cutting yourself is a part of you. At one point in your life you didn't cut yourself that was the true you. The first time you cut yourself it was caused by something and that altered the true you. You should find an activity or hobby that will allow you take your mind off cutting yourself.