Lolli
June 17th, 2012, 11:11 AM
I made a huge mistake and ended up sleeping with four men between twenty and forty. My dad found out n went ape, to the extent that he hit me and his girlfriend would sing over me if I spoke.
His girlfriends behaviour annoys me most because her children were being raped and her kids confided in me. I had to listen to them telling me horrid accounts of what happened while I made notes to give to the police the following day as I couldn't do so until dad n his gf were back because no-one would've been with them while I spoke to an officer. Not once did I turn my back on those kids even though I had to endure the story from them repeated times. I was the support for those kids while their own mother locked herself in her room because she couldn't cope.
We moved from a small town to Swindon because of that and I went from living with my mum to living with dad and becky (his gf) so that I could be there for the kids and to be closer to my dad.
Ever since I was little I have placed my dad on a golden pedistal and looked up to him. He has dragged me through alot and I have instantly forgiven him because he is my dad. I have unintentailly been dragged through the following courtesy of my dad: picking uP the pieces of his failed relationship with my mother, he turned me against my mum making out she was in capable of being a parent, I've alwYs come second to his gf's and had to deal with them waltzing in and out of our lives and not having a chance to say I'm not happy, I've been taken advantage of by his friend who dad knew was a registered sex offender. And not once have I used that against him.
About a year ago I went online looking for a more interesting conversation than that of the ones I would have with people of my own age. I ended up meeting some of the people I spoke to and as an end result I slept with them. During this I used a false name and age so that they would still tLk to me like I was N adult.
My dad found out, by going through my computer, what I was up to behind closed doors and got me to tell him everything. Once I had done so I was not allowed to express how I was feeling because what I had done had destroyed their lives because I apparently hated them.
One night we had an argument and ended on a bad note. I stormed upTairs in a stress then came down to build bridges with his gf and to apologise. I said I wanted to speak to my dad alone, his response was there are no secrets in this house and that if I wanted to speak I had to with the both of them. At this point I refused and said I didn't want to talk to him anymore and that I was going to bed. So I started walking uPstairs but he dragged me back down shouting at me. He then pushed me against the wall and repeTedly hit me before dragging me into the kitchen to have a shout for an hour. I ended up with a black eye and bruises on my back. Then it got worse becUase my mum knew Nd wouldn't let my brother stay with my dad. Dad then stRted blaming everything on me, he told police he hit me becUse I hit him first after provoking him. He told my family that I was selling myself on the streets along with a whole pack of lies. The end result is that I'm in care and my dad sYs that he wants nothing to do with me despite everything I forgave him for, he won't forgive me And is trying to use my little brother as a weapon
I know what I did is wrong but I'm not going to pay forever.
WhT do you all think???
His girlfriends behaviour annoys me most because her children were being raped and her kids confided in me. I had to listen to them telling me horrid accounts of what happened while I made notes to give to the police the following day as I couldn't do so until dad n his gf were back because no-one would've been with them while I spoke to an officer. Not once did I turn my back on those kids even though I had to endure the story from them repeated times. I was the support for those kids while their own mother locked herself in her room because she couldn't cope.
We moved from a small town to Swindon because of that and I went from living with my mum to living with dad and becky (his gf) so that I could be there for the kids and to be closer to my dad.
Ever since I was little I have placed my dad on a golden pedistal and looked up to him. He has dragged me through alot and I have instantly forgiven him because he is my dad. I have unintentailly been dragged through the following courtesy of my dad: picking uP the pieces of his failed relationship with my mother, he turned me against my mum making out she was in capable of being a parent, I've alwYs come second to his gf's and had to deal with them waltzing in and out of our lives and not having a chance to say I'm not happy, I've been taken advantage of by his friend who dad knew was a registered sex offender. And not once have I used that against him.
About a year ago I went online looking for a more interesting conversation than that of the ones I would have with people of my own age. I ended up meeting some of the people I spoke to and as an end result I slept with them. During this I used a false name and age so that they would still tLk to me like I was N adult.
My dad found out, by going through my computer, what I was up to behind closed doors and got me to tell him everything. Once I had done so I was not allowed to express how I was feeling because what I had done had destroyed their lives because I apparently hated them.
One night we had an argument and ended on a bad note. I stormed upTairs in a stress then came down to build bridges with his gf and to apologise. I said I wanted to speak to my dad alone, his response was there are no secrets in this house and that if I wanted to speak I had to with the both of them. At this point I refused and said I didn't want to talk to him anymore and that I was going to bed. So I started walking uPstairs but he dragged me back down shouting at me. He then pushed me against the wall and repeTedly hit me before dragging me into the kitchen to have a shout for an hour. I ended up with a black eye and bruises on my back. Then it got worse becUase my mum knew Nd wouldn't let my brother stay with my dad. Dad then stRted blaming everything on me, he told police he hit me becUse I hit him first after provoking him. He told my family that I was selling myself on the streets along with a whole pack of lies. The end result is that I'm in care and my dad sYs that he wants nothing to do with me despite everything I forgave him for, he won't forgive me And is trying to use my little brother as a weapon
I know what I did is wrong but I'm not going to pay forever.
WhT do you all think???