I Cut For The Girl I Love

[lifeguardd3]

Hello, I'm 13 and going into 8th grade this coming school year. At the beginning of the year I met a girl I knew absolutely nothing about. She seemed nice enough and she is absolutely gorgeous, though she and many others don't see it that way. We texted a lot and finally decided to hang out. She is highly spontaneous so one night, I believe this was at the beginning of winter break, she called me and told me to come over to her friend Rachel's house, where she was spending the night. I of course agreed and spent from 8 until midnight having a good time with her. We did not kiss, but we hugged often and on the car ride home she leaned her head on my shoulder. I was/am in love. A few days later I found out she had a boyfriend the whole time (she had mentioned on several occasions wanting to make out with me). This hit me hard, I had not felt this feeling before so I just comepletly ignored her until one day she sent me a text. She was hysterical (not the haha, funny hysterical, I mean the crying and losing it kind). She opened up to me and explained that her parents treat her as if she is worth less and that for a while she had been cutting. This came as a comepletly surprise to me but I promised to be there for her. She told me she loved me and then days later made out with some random boy at the movies. I left her and swore never to go back. This same situation happened over and over again until finally I stopped talking to her all together. Weeks passed and I thought I had forgot about her all together. I have parties a lot at my house, so I had a bonfire one weekend with maybe 30 good friends and girls. A girl named Hannah came onto me at the party and by the end of the night we were dating. The next morning both of my parents weren't home and I was cleaning up from the party and I got a text from her saying "Give me one more chance", so I did. That night she came over and she kissed me. This kiss was AMAZING like nothing else in the world. Then she whispered in my ear that she loved me... I was sooooooooooo happy. The next day we hung out at her house for several hours having fun: swimming, bike riding, playing ball, kissing and talking. When I was up in her room with her alone, I let held her in my arms and it was the best thing ever. The next day at school she begged for her old boyfriend back. It hurt, so much. So I cut. I thought I could control it but it soon started to control me... We started talking again and I kow she's just going to hurt me, but I love her... Please give me advice on how to stop cutting and what to do :'(

[DismaliciouSx]

My advice? Leave her in the past, yes it will hurt to do so and sometimes you'll miss her greatly but it is for the best. As for the cutting, well, you must focus on other things and want to get better. By leaving her behind you'll be able to focus on better more positive things and hopefully through time get better and stop.

[XxNINJAxX]

My friend was in a similar delimah he gave her so many chanes she said shed leave her boyfriend for him she didn't and one day they were going to hang out he waited and waited no show what's worse is it was raing so he got sick of it an never spoke to her again but take it from me do anything to stop cutting I do it and I do not encourage it at all it consumes lives and I hope you can save yours

[lifeguardd3]

I think I need to be there for her though, nobody else really knows anything about her cutting, her mom knows but ignores it. Maybe she'll see how much I love her too... She called me last night because she was scared of a bad dream or something and I stayed up all night with her. Maybe she needs someone who can do that.

[RedViper]

That story sounds very familiar in some respects. I was once with a girl and i fell for her, hard. I was so in love with her I either didn't see or didn't want to see that she was still in love with her ex. eventually her ex decided he wanted her back so she left me for him. I had cut in the past and she was the only thing holding me together. I started cutting again. I still spoke to her every day, which probably didn't help matters. eventually her boyfriend left her and she came back to me and i, being the idiot i am, took her back knowing she was still in love with her ex. She later said that she might be pregnant to her ex and I told her that I'd stick by her no matter what. it turned out she wasn't pregnant and we just went on with life for a few more weeks. One day we were out with one of our friends who brought along one of their friends. At the end of the day she left me again, for the guy our friend had brought. I was willing to stick by her when their was a chance she was pregnant to someone else and she left me for a guy she'd know for three hours. That hurt. A lot. I started cutting even more. But eventually i started to feel better, it wasn't quite that simple i did have a bit of help from friends, and i started to get over her. recently we started talking again and i saw how easy it would be for me to fall back in love with her again. Sorry for the rant but i think in the end you would be better off to keep your distance, not necessarily stop talking to her all together but just keep your distance.