None Other Than Me.

[KawaiiKimo]

Who'd Be The One Bad Apple Out Of All The Kids? None Other Than Me. Sometimes I Think I Carry To Much Baggage In Relationships And Thats Why They Never Last. Or Maybe Its My Constant Suspicion Of People Pushing Them Away, Hell I Dont Know. What I Do Know Is That Every Since I Moved In With My Mother (17 Years Of Age), Shit Happens. Its Like Im In Constant Fear Of Her Boyfriend Touching Me, And I Could Swear He's Leading Up To It. The Voices Are Also Louder Than Ever. The Constant Depression,The Faking Of Smiles Until Hear THEM Whisper In My Ear And The Color Drains From My Face. And I Wish I Could Tell My Family How I Feel But They Wouldnt Understand. They Just Wouldnt. They'd Think Im Seeking Attention And Being A Drama Queen But This Shit Hurts. Not To Have Anyone In Your Corner But One Sole Person Who Has The Very Same Symptoms As You. The Person You Love Be Burdened By Such Huge Task Of SafeGuarding You. On More Than One Attempt, I Blanked Out On Her And Almost Successfully Committed Suicide. My Parent Took That As Me Being An Attention Whore And PRETENDED To Care When My Guidance Counselor Reported Me. If They Cared They Would Have Gotten Help Immediately But They Didnt Which Proved To Me How Much I Was Worth To Them. Today, June 16th, My Sister Made Fun Of Me Being Chronically Depressed. This Shit Has Gotten So Bad To The Point Where I Hardly Sleep, Im Moody, I Barely Eat, And I Nearly Failed My 11th Grade Year. My Fucking G.P.A Is A 1.9 When All Of High School I Had A 4.0
Sometimes.....I Just Want To Leave And Never Come Back. I Mean Though Kira's The Same As Me And Claims To Love Me, Who'd Want Something Just As Broken As You Are.....

[Thunderstorm]

Kira needs you just as much as you need her. Do not let your self go. Read my signature. you have a TEMPORARY problem. It can be fixed. you have other family members. An Aunt? An Uncle? If not go to some teacher at school that you trust and they can counsel you and help you through everything. DO NOT GIVE UP. The world needs you more than you need the world, so keep on fighting for Kira, for them, for us.....

[StrawberryCyanide]

I understand it feels like your parents don't care about you, but they love you more than anything, they don't understand what you're going through, how you feel or why you do the things you do. Because they're not you! But they care. You don't have to talk to them if you don't want to, there are professionals who know what you're going through and have more power to help you. If you feel unsafe, please talk to someone. People out there want to help you, and don't forget you have all of us who care about you! Talking gets easier once you start, and I think you should talk to someone.