Underground_Network
June 15th, 2012, 11:20 AM
Somehow I find myself returning to VT as my only sort of safe haven where no one really completely knows me, or those who do know me from here really aren't on here anymore. Regardless, I posted about asking a girl out and all that jazz awhile back and we've been going steady for about a month now and all is more or less great.
She truly is wonderful and there have literally been almost no bumps in the road.
Here's an issue though, that maybe isn't an issue, because she doesn't treat it like one, but I still view it as one: She's a virgin. I'm not.
I joke with her about a lot of things including sex but I really want to wait until she's ready. Nonetheless my birthday is in a couple weeks and she seems pretty set on having sex with me then. I've tried to explain to her that I'd rather her first time be special for her and not special for me, but she claims virginity means nothing to her and she doesn't really care about all that and just wants to please me. I realize most guys would jump on that and just be like "okay, let's do it", but I'm just a little more hesitant... Because I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY fucking like this girl and I don't want to move too fast and fuck things up. She means so much to me that despite my horny teenage impulses I could probably go a year without sex for her (I already went three months without even kissing a girl while we weren't together just because of how much I cared for her and how often I was skyping with and texting her back at college...). She's just so amazing and I realize that if she wants it, I'll give it to her. But I just don't know if she wants to please me or if she actually wants to have sex.
This might all be stupid and overthinking things and maybe I should just go ahead and do it on my birthday, but I just don't want her to think that she should reward me for liking her by spreading her legs on my birthday. -.- I'm a fucking idiot I know, but I'm just wondering what other people think I guess.
She truly is wonderful and there have literally been almost no bumps in the road.
Here's an issue though, that maybe isn't an issue, because she doesn't treat it like one, but I still view it as one: She's a virgin. I'm not.
I joke with her about a lot of things including sex but I really want to wait until she's ready. Nonetheless my birthday is in a couple weeks and she seems pretty set on having sex with me then. I've tried to explain to her that I'd rather her first time be special for her and not special for me, but she claims virginity means nothing to her and she doesn't really care about all that and just wants to please me. I realize most guys would jump on that and just be like "okay, let's do it", but I'm just a little more hesitant... Because I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY fucking like this girl and I don't want to move too fast and fuck things up. She means so much to me that despite my horny teenage impulses I could probably go a year without sex for her (I already went three months without even kissing a girl while we weren't together just because of how much I cared for her and how often I was skyping with and texting her back at college...). She's just so amazing and I realize that if she wants it, I'll give it to her. But I just don't know if she wants to please me or if she actually wants to have sex.
This might all be stupid and overthinking things and maybe I should just go ahead and do it on my birthday, but I just don't want her to think that she should reward me for liking her by spreading her legs on my birthday. -.- I'm a fucking idiot I know, but I'm just wondering what other people think I guess.