It's just so hard to function

[Aceso]

I can barely function. I literally cannot do anything, I'm exhausted. It's like I'm waiting around forever for something to happen but I don't know what.
Nobody talks to me anymore, I feel like I'm just invisible. I'm just kind of sat alone in my room all day, when I'm not in school. I feel so isolated and alone, I just can't see what there is for me to work forward too. I feel like just another nothing, another nobody.
Everything I do, I mess up or do wrong. I can't even be happy anymore, it's like I deserve how I feel. And I'm trying so, so hard to make things work - get into school again, keep on top of revision, keep up a strong face for my family, but I just can't. Mum exploded again today, shouting and screaming and yelling at dad about how I'm such a burden.
I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to be this horrible, useless mess I've become. Why can't I just clear my mind? I hate knowing that no one really cares anymore. I hate how when my family or friends try to reassure me, it's only automatic. ''Mm, yes yes, of course we care. Now please stop hassling us, we have more important things to do.''
I feel so selfish, I have so many ambitions, but I'm just not strong enough to carry them through. All I can resort to is my blade, and I'm so sick of it. I'm so sad of looking in the mirror and wanting to cry at my reflection. I'm so tired of trying to be normal, when I'm just thoroughly incapable of it.
I'll never be anything, I just wish someone could actually tell me I mean something to them, or just wrap their arms around me and tell me things will be okay. I'm so exhausted trying to fight this alone, I can't do it anymore. :(

[sammy1996]

Things like this really get to me :'( You arn't alone, i know it sounds pathetic but we are all here for you at VT, im not naive enough to believe thats a great warmth to you but we are. I'm sure your parents dont quite understand just how upset you are but i dont know enough to be sure of that, if your parents really are like that im so sorry, they shouldnt be like that.

One thing you have to understand is that the pain and sadness you feel around now isnt your fault, and while it might seem like these bad times wont end, they will. always smile and just think about how it will get better once you can do your own thing, teenage years like this are always the hardest but we can all get through it and enjoy ourselves in the long run.

Dont feel selfish about talking to people and taking their time, the people that talk to you do so because they like you.

Not quite sure my post made sense really, i'd just like you to know we're here for you and that things will be ok *internet hugs* :')

[ets99]

Let me start by saying, there is always someone who will be there for you all the way through your life. Most of the time those are the people you'd least suspect. It'll seem to you like they're being rude and hurtful, but it's really them trying to help you through your ordeles. Your friends may seem like they don't care but they really do, at least some of them. As you go through life that list will shorten, and relationships will grow. Eventually you'll know the people that care for you. All of the problems you're experiencing will be solved, but only time can tell.

I would say internet hugs, but that's already taken. :)
(Refering to paragraph above)