Feeling really depressed

[OFWGKTA]

Well, there's a few things in my life right now that are making me feel this way: 1) I missed my first day of summer school so I might get kicked out tomorrow and in turn get held back.
2) My mom is usually upset with me because of doing stupid things and messing up, this will make it worse
3) Today's my birthday and only two people have told me happy birthday, neither of them were my family.

I just feel like I'd be less of nuicinse to everybody, specifically my mom, if I ran away or I just wasn't here anymore, all I feel like is a giant fuckup that ruins everything I get the chance to do or that will help me.

I'm a 13 year old guy if it helps.

[Mortal Coil]

How long have you been feeling depressed? Is it more prominent today than it usually is, or have you been feeling insignificant and worrying a lot for a while?

Please remember that you are important to the world. You family, though they're tough on you, do love you. The world is a better place with you in it :hug:

[Alexithymia]

I agree with the post above. Additionally, have you been feeling this way for a while or has it just exploded recently? Both can be depression, but the "explosion" is more likely to go away. Regardless, you should talk with your mother about this. It's important for her to know, even if it seems she doesn't love you. She might not understand at a first, but at least let her know.

*Hugs* Stay strong.