Why cant i be normal??? :(

[SilentCutter]

I cut myself alot today. I was bored and decided to write down whats wrong with me. Its a long fucking list! Im suicidal, I have trust issues for no reason, I have OCD, im a masochist, i dont have friends, i hate being alone yet i prefer it that way, im a compulsive liar, im always depressed, i sometimes lie to get attention, Id do ANYTHING to be loved or be told "i love you" even if theres no meaning behind it, im a fat disgusting cow, i hate myself, i see things people dont, i scream for no reason because I "feel" something by me, i constantly have nightmares, i have low self esteem, I have paranoid personality disorder, im in love with a video game character, i scared of a bunch of stupid things like: scared of being touched, scared of being alone, scared of living, scared when people are behind me, scared of going outside, scared of being called "insane" because in reality i know i am...

Wow, i really am broken :(

Im sry for the rambling...

[ChaseThisLight]

You say you don't feel normal... but what actually is normal?

Capitolist society has forced people to believe that if they are any different to the people in the media, like those stupid Kardashians or w/e, then they are not normal.

The truth is, you are normal. You are you. Anything and everything you want to be.

Live your live knowing that you are you. Normal. Embrace the things which make you happy. Because that makes you; you!

and being your self and embracing it is the most important thing in life!

[Breakeven]

no one is normal , ur just going throu alot of pain :hug:
im here if u need someone to talk too

[SilentCutter]

lol these were very nice things to say, thank you both

[Klaudiax]

Seriously, no one is normal but that's what most people said on here anyway cause it's true.
At least you're different it's cute.

[Baseda]

Look. I went through that this year and stopped an 2 weeks ago. I would go to school and people would laugh at me. It's ok to go through this stage in life. Just go with it and get those negative thoughts out of your head. I can bet you 40 dollars that someone out there is your friend. And more than one probably. Just go out and life live to the fullest. You only get one. It's not a video game . If you need any help feel free to ask me through Skype. I know what you are going through

[oneDay]

Listen, under no circumstances should you ever feel less valuable, special, or less important that anyone else because you are just as normal as anyone else, including me. No one at this moment is living a life free of problems, so how do your problems make you any different? Do not believe that you are in any way "abnormal" compared to your friends, family, neighbors, or a total stranger. If you were insane I highly doubt that you could post on this site, so why can you? Because you are normal and far from insane. Don't forget that.

[Thunderstorm]

Normal has no definition. Everyone goes by the beat of their own drum.

Someone is out their for you. it's justa matter if you want to get out there and find them.