Help

[Maiku]

I really need help... I have just made this new account because i didn't know where else to go. Today i found out that my father lost his job and that I could fail for the year in school. I have gone through depression before and no body knows this, I was made fun of in 5th-6th grade for how i dressed and acted and i had no true friends at that point. I was at the point at which i was going to kill myself that day, i texted my friend telling him everthing and asking for help, he was one of the only people i had trusted with anything regarding my personal information. He told me that it would be ok and not to kill myself and that we could talk tomorrow at school. This is what i have trouble telling people, when i got to school he had told all of his friends about it and they started making fun of me about that. This has scared me to the point at which i can never talk to people about getting help anymore, i just cant trust people, the only time i ever told anyone this was when i was in a club i joined called Anti-Bullying Club at my school. My friends (now) had gotten me to join this club and it help me get over what happened to me. Truly i never got over it though it is still there in my heart making me have these mental break downs. So back to the point, I was at the club and they asked everyone what they're worst experience was with bullying. everyone went on to tell their stories, and people would break down crying. When it got to me I just sat there started telling my story, when i got to the part of my near suicide i just broke down and couldnt stop sobbing. When ever i think of this i just loss it like i am now. My father lost his job so i dont know what will happen in the future, and i might be failing for the year in school. If both of these happen I don't know what i will do, I NEED HELP. PLEASE REPLY AS FAST AS POSSIBLE I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WILL DO IN THE NEXT HOURS.

[Desuetude]

About your fathers job you just need to stay positive and maybe help him look for a new one, if he's focused on finding one that will help although really, you cannot control whether he gets jobs or not, he just needs to be at his best and hope that it's enough. With school, I know it seems hard but you have to put some effort into revising and concentrating some more, any spare time just flick through your books, look over things that will help with any coming exams. If you go into panic mode then unfortunately nothing much will get done about it, you have to try and stay calm and controlled and think about all the plausible options first.

Do you think it might help talking to your your family about the bullying and what happened? They should be more supportive of you and they'd want to know if you're okay.
Can you not go back to that Anti-bullying club or find some place else like it? It seems like it would help, also finding out about other peoples experiences and being able to relate to them may also do some good. Make you feel like you're not alone, you're never alone.

You don't need to do anything drastic, you have your whole life to lead now don't take it away. I know it feels as though you're in a hole and nothing will get better but eventually, even just a little bit, that feeling should pass. Talking to someone whether that be online or in real life should help and hopefully just posting this and getting it out did some good? Take some deep breaths and think about this, you still have something to give and something to gain from the world, experiences and people to meet, things to live for, things that make you happy. Do you really want to be taken away from all of that unable to choose the decision to turn back? Once it's done there is never an undo button.

[JustinMe]

I'm sorry that this has happened to you but killing yourself isn't the answer, life is like that, you'll meet alot of people like you friend who told kids about you, they are insecure and that's why they have to make themselves look taugh by bullying other kids, but you can't give up, they say life is beautiful and it's full of surprises, good things will happen to you sooner or later but you can't give, just study extra hard and maybe talk to your dad about his job and possibly failing school, wish you all the best *hugs* <3

[Maiku]

thank you all so much talking about it sometimes helps but i cant talk to anyone irl about this because just when i remember it i break down, i will seek help to find out y im just swinging from happy to suicidal you have helped me today and if i post in the future plz help me then too.

thank you all:wub:

[xaydavis]

Im very sorry taht your father lost his job u need to stay strong and if people pick on you u need to tell them the truth or tell them how u really feel then u need to talk to someone

[tmak621]

I can relate to your father losing his job. My dad lost his job two years ago and I thought it was my fault because I was making him miss out on work so he can be there by my side whenever I was having trouble. I always, and still do sometimes, think it was my fault. But it really isn't. The economy is getting bad now-a-days.

About the bullying part, it makes you stronger. This is terrible to say but let them keep on bullying you. It seriously makes you stronger. I've been through it and whenever I got bullied, I said back to them with a joke about what they said to me. Just stay strong. If I can do it, you can too.