Needs help!

[JustinMe]

Hey so I'm new here and I've been living in hell, u see I like drawing and when I draw I feel like I'm not in this crazy world anymore, like I'm flying and I'm in a complete different place, drawing is my escape! But no one really told me how good I'm, my mom is always mad at me coz she thinks that drawing is 'kids stuff' she never really cared or even complemented any of my drawings, one day she got soo mad that she started ripping them apart and throwing them outta the window and dad is pretty much the same and worse ( they r divorced), I'm gay but i havent told anyone but my sister, I like this guy who lives next door so i write about him in my diaries and stuff and one day my mom's behavior got worse she started telling me that I'm going to hell and my life style is disgusting and shit like that, I've wondered why she's acting that way and found out that she read my diaries, I hate my life and I tried to kill myself but they toke me to the hospital, gave me a shit load of drugs so I started cutting and I still do, I hate being at home so much that I ran away but Nan that's my sister convinced me to go back and I did but I've built a wall between me and my parents ever since that day, they don't understand me, nobody does!! Idk what to do any more, please help!

[Destructive Impulse]

Nobody understands anything. I don't know if you are religious but if you are just remember god has a plan. I can relate. My parents aren't supportive of my photography. This may sound stupid but get a safe for your stuff so your parents can't get into it. I also cut (recently stopped but I'm tempted) and I've been hospitalized. Im here for ya.

[destaney]

I've been through similar situations i sometimes feel like when i draw i can go into my own little world and no one can hurt me there so next time you feel angry and want to cut just draw or wright what you feel it helped me a lot when i was cuting

[destaney]

I've been through similar situations i sometimes feel like when i draw i can go into my own little world and no one can hurt me there so next time you feel angry and want to cut just draw or wright what you feel it helped me a lot when i was cuting i hope this helps :)

[Stryker125]

Like the other guy said, nobody really understands anyone. I like to draw too, though I'm pretty shit at it. I'm at an art school, and it's pretty fun for the most part. I'm really sorry about how bad you've got it. But God gives the heaviest burden's to the people who can carry them. Life is beautiful, and one day you'll see it. Keep drawing, don't ever stop. If you want, one day you can go to school for it, and learn things you didn't know about it. I'm sorry you feel bad enough to try killing yourself. I know it's tough, please don't give up. There's so much to see in this life, and it'd be a shame if you left before you got to see it all.

Also, you have the same first name as me, which automatically makes you 10x more awesome :P

[StoppingTime]

Well, you've come to the right place. We are here to help you.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with drawing, as I'm sure you know. Most people don't understand that things like this can really save someone. Music, drawing, writing, anything like that. Usually, they are just thought of as "extra" things that you don't really have to do, especially drawing.
Just try to ignore your parents. Most of the time, there is nothing you can do to change their mind. They will always just assume they are right in a situation like this. Don't block them out of your life completely, though. You never know when you might need them, or vice versa.

Keep a good relationship with your sister. You two trust each other, and at times like this, that is key. Have you told her about your self harm? Can you talk to her about that? This may seem unnecessary, but it really does help to just talk everything out with someone you're close to. Tell her how you've been feeling, anything you are comfortable with.
If you feel you're up to it, I would even try to seek professional help. Usually, these meetings can be kept confidential, so you're parents don't have to know about it.

Stay strong, and remember that there is no reason to ruin an amazing person like yourself over bad situations.

[jessiecox1]

Drawing is a great way to express yourself...sadly, the best I can do is stick figures. I'm sorry to hear that your parents destroy your artwork...could you get a binder for them and keep them in your locker at school? Keep drawing...draw places in the world you'd love to go someday, or other subjects you like. Maybe someday you could be an artist or art teacher, or study art history and work at a museum.

If you have an art teacher or even a school counselor, try talking to them to see if there is some type of art club you could become a part of. My school has an art exhibit each year where they display artwork that students have worked on in different mediums. That could be a way for you to display and showcase your artwork.

Please don't kill yourself...you could become the next Picasso, Rembrandt, or Salvador Dali and it would be a shame that you never gave yourself the chance to find out. If you still have those thoughts, please talk to a counselor or adult you trust at your school.

[JustinMe]

Destructive Impulse, Destaney, Stryker, Stopping time and Jessie, thank you so much for ur help I think I know what to do now, u guys r amazing<3

And Jessie, thank u, I absolutely love the idea of drawing places I wanna go to one day and I'm definitely doing it :)

[jessiecox1]

You're very welcome...glad I could help you.