Leaving

[Heatbomb21]

Most of my life, kids in school were not at all the best. I could not make friends to save my life, and when I tried, things ended prematurely.

I eventually became very antisocial, and didn't speak to anyone unless necessary.

My last school, from which I graduated yesterday, held the friendliest people I've ever met and probably will meet. My first ever friend was made here, my first love was here, my first feeling of acceptance was here. Nobody has treated me better. During the early portion of my time there, I was a monster thanks to my past experiences. I was even contemplating suicide at the time. But the people here saved me from all of that. I love them with all of my heart.

I couldn't bear the thought of leaving them. But yesterday, I had to. Most of us will be going to different high schools. To be most precise, 15 people will be going to 10 different schools. So I won't be seeing them like I have been. But that's to be expected.

But before yesterday, for about 2 weeks, I was depressed non-stop about this whole thing. In the time I've known them, they changed me from a monster to an idol to them. I'm afraid that I'll revert back to my old self if I'm without them. That's been my greatest fear since I started 8th, and as this time neared, it's gotten worse.

I'll still have contact with them, thanks to social networking, but I feel like I will be left like I was before I came here. At our afterparty yesterday, most everyone left and I cried the rest of the night, because I had that same picture burned in my head of them leaving me.

How can I cope with this? It feels like I'm losing a huge part of me every moment I'm not with them...

[Thunderstorm]

I'm sorry.
Life goes on. They would want you to keep living your life, like when you were with them, They will always be your real friends. They will make new friends, and you will have to too. But, hang out with them this summer. Keep living life with them like you did this past year. It's not like they have died. If anything, a new world has been born between you all. Graduating is like moving up a step with maturity and friendship. Look at it that way. :yes:

[Aves]

Just remember, you can keep in touch with them very easily now, thanks to Facebook and such. Graduations are always double-edged swords. For one, you're finished with a certain level of schooling, and it's a time for celebration. However, you also lose the same home you had the past few years. Just know that the future will always hold big things for you.

Middle school to high school can be a big transition, especially without a group of friends to back you up. Just know that now you can start anew. You can be who you want to be. If you don't want to be that "monster", you don't have to be. You can be the idol you are now, and you'll do fine. Just be social and talk to new people, you'll do fine.

[Heatbomb21]

Thank you both. I realize that I will have to move on and so do they. I will always carry what they gave me. I won't have to worry about the outcome of our friendship if they are true. Friendships last more than one lifetime if I choose to keep them.

Thanks again :')