Hogwarts.Guardian
June 8th, 2012, 05:52 PM
Hi, I wanted to make this for people who are trying to stop but are struggeling .If you are struggeling to stop you can come here when you get the urge to talk about it and keep your mind off cutting.
Im going to start by telling my story.
I come for a large family and Im also a twin . My twin is a major pain in the arse.We have been forced to share everything down to a bed at one point . Being constantly around her and talking to it has gotten to a point where I can't stand the thought of being around her. When she's sick even if she's faking it my mother and father would jump through hoops for her but theu don't gibe a shit unless I'm close to deaths door. Being ignored by my family got to me and Stress of my friends making mean comments about how I look and eat along with falling behind in subject struggeling to sleep and failing almost all my tests caused me to become confused and upset.I became detatched from my friends that I've known for almost eleven years . On my 15th birthday I began cutting . At the beginning they were only small. As time went on they got bigger and deeper. One night I was alone in the house and I cut a little too deep. It took a while for the blood to stop and I started to get light headed. When my mother came home she commented on how pale I was and complained of how if I did more than just sitting and playing on my phone I wouldn't be as pale. Cutting that night scared me and I didn't do it in almost a month and a half
though it was very hard. Last week I completed my house exams and got my summer holidays. I have gotten bored and I had nothing to keep my mind off my cutting. In the last week I have cut 8 times on my hips where it is easier to hide and tonight before writing this one time very deep on my wrist. The scars and cuts are hard to hide from people during the summer and I really want to stop. Thinking about this and writing it made me realise why I really started in the first place. Up until now I just did because I was frustrated and confused. Talking about it really those help. Why don't you try?
Im going to start by telling my story.
I come for a large family and Im also a twin . My twin is a major pain in the arse.We have been forced to share everything down to a bed at one point . Being constantly around her and talking to it has gotten to a point where I can't stand the thought of being around her. When she's sick even if she's faking it my mother and father would jump through hoops for her but theu don't gibe a shit unless I'm close to deaths door. Being ignored by my family got to me and Stress of my friends making mean comments about how I look and eat along with falling behind in subject struggeling to sleep and failing almost all my tests caused me to become confused and upset.I became detatched from my friends that I've known for almost eleven years . On my 15th birthday I began cutting . At the beginning they were only small. As time went on they got bigger and deeper. One night I was alone in the house and I cut a little too deep. It took a while for the blood to stop and I started to get light headed. When my mother came home she commented on how pale I was and complained of how if I did more than just sitting and playing on my phone I wouldn't be as pale. Cutting that night scared me and I didn't do it in almost a month and a half
though it was very hard. Last week I completed my house exams and got my summer holidays. I have gotten bored and I had nothing to keep my mind off my cutting. In the last week I have cut 8 times on my hips where it is easier to hide and tonight before writing this one time very deep on my wrist. The scars and cuts are hard to hide from people during the summer and I really want to stop. Thinking about this and writing it made me realise why I really started in the first place. Up until now I just did because I was frustrated and confused. Talking about it really those help. Why don't you try?