Destructive Impulse
June 8th, 2012, 11:40 AM
I've spent a week at camp ryla which is a leadership program and Ive figured alot out about my family. My cabin and I grew are so close and the same goes for my sister cabin. Camp ryla changedy life. I've realized what verbal abuse is and what physiological abuse is. My parents yelling at me saying im worthless and a piece of shit isn't normal. Them saying they hate me isn't normal. Them saying I'll grow up to fail and there is no hope for me is not normal. Camp ryla was unlike any other place. I found out what a family is. Family is always there for you and will help you overcome anything instead of telling you you can't. I told my cabin group I've never been at a plac where I wasn't always belittled, where I could tell people anything without worry or fear of repercussions, where I had support. Ive never had support before. I've discovered what a family is y'all and what a family does. I've been verbally abused and I've come to accept that. I've also been pyscologically abused and I realized that. I never thought those things were real until I met my cabin group and knew support. I now have an actual loving family. I've never had that. I have a support system and love. I've never had that. I have a family. I've never had that. But I still have parents that belittle me and terrify me and just abuse me. But they aren't my family.
Sorry for the long post y'all.
Sorry for the long post y'all.