Bombshelled

[MysticalBurrito]

I honestly hate posting this here, but I feel like I'm at the edge of my rope. I've been suicidal for a while now, but I never thought about it in depth, I always found something to make myself drop the thought. Now I can't find anything to live for, I'll never fall in love with someone and not worry that people will hate me for it, my cutting isn't going away no matter how hard I try, I recently started my "bulimic tendencies" again, and my dad's brain tumors might be back. My parents would never accept me if I came out, if they knew anything about the girls that I've liked. I feel ashamed by it. I regret so many things, it's all that goes on inside my head. So to combat these feelings I took a walk earlier and a thought came into my head to actually do it. I know where I would do it, how I will do it, what the note would say, and where I'd send my journal to... It doesn't scare me anymore.
I'm sorry about rambling, I just needed to get it out before it ate me alive. >.<

[therunaway]

Before you do anything, think about this, one more year & you'll be 18 and you can be out on your own in your own house & it wouldn't matter if your parents accepted you. It may hurt your feelings, but if they really loved you, they would accept it. Please, think about it..

[MysticalBurrito]

I don't want to disappoint them, and coming out even when I move, will do so.
Thank you for the advice though.

[Skyhawk]

You don't need to come out to anyone, honestly.
Only the people you're "interested in". ^.^

therunaway has probably the best advice.