Venting.

[Bath]

I've been clear of self harm for a while now, I'm not sure how long exactly, but I haven't self harmed regularly for I'd say about 3 months. It's a result of learning, identifying, and regulating my emotions, and having better support from certain people. But I got out of the shower yesterday and randomly, looking at the corner where I commonly self harmed, I missed it. Like, I remembered the feeling of it and the comfort.

I don't really have any reason to cut anymore, and I don't want to, but I miss the feeling of it. That euphoria.

I'm confident enough that I won't cut again, at least not anytime soon, but I feel unsettled and I miss it, as if I would miss a person. And it sucks.

[SilentCutter]

Im sure that feeling is normal especially if youve done it for a while. Im very happy for you though

[Dimitri]

Hey hun, let's step back an analyze this for a moment. You haven't self harmed in a while...since you cannot remember, that is great!!!! You have made it this far and by not saying you are going to harm any time soon is something I plan on holding you to.

Remember, you are strong and when you see that corner remember where you came from, remember your triumphs and what it took to get where you are. Make that spot special, make it special so when you look at it you see a new spot, one not associated with grief and despair but one with an aura of happiness and peace, tranquility and love, acceptance and triumph.

Remember, happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.

[Mortal Coil]

Trust me, I know that feeling. You've come so far, and this "missing" feeling that you have is nothing compared to what you were going through a few months ago.
Yes, it sucks, but you can get through this :hug: