My depression

[I'm cool like spongebob]

My Dad died when I was 8 years old. At the time I was to young to understand it so i just ignored it, never accepted it. I have always questioned life since then. I never thought I was depressed but I've read a few things on depression and think I might be. At school and with my family I probably come across as a perfectly normal person. Maybe even to you reading this I seem o.k. I am pretty sure I am not. I have self-harmed a few times. I did it just to remind me that I am alive because things feel so un-real at times. I have a good family and good friends. My dad died quite a few years ago so why should I feel like this. I don't enjoy life anymore and treat it like a thing you just have to do. Not that long ago all I would think about was suicide, I realise now that that would be giving in. Everday may be a struggle, as it is for so many others, but I will struggle onwards. I do not want to ask for help from my mum or freinds because I fear they will just say I'm being dramatic or something. Besides i never feel my mum inderstands she's more of a "career-focused" person. Pays people to do everything...including look after her children. Sorry if I sound as if I am moaning. But I felt as if making this post would help me say things that I have always feared saying.

[Φρανκομβριτ]

i was in a somewhat similar position. you are going to have to come clean with your mum and tell her the truth, and that is something very hard to do. After that, see about getting help from your doctor. they can refer you to psychotherapists, and can also recommend anti depressants. I wish you the best luck. xx

[Bobby]

As Rudi said, go to a doctor, and a therapist that can help you to deal with the loss.

[Serenity]

Sorry if I sound as if I am moaning. But I felt as if making this post would help me say things that I have always feared saying.

You certainly don't sound like you're moaning, and I applaud you for saying things you're afraid to say- it's a hard thing to do :daisy:

Like Rudi and Bobby, I agree that you should definitely talk to your mom and see a doctor. You shouldn't feel as if you can't go to people for help, because life is way too hard to make it on your own, even without the added difficulties we face each day.