Over a years work wasted.

[Perfectly Flawed]

I messed up pretty big a hour or two ago. I went over a year and a half without cutting and I was damn proud of myself, but tonight that changed. Last night I accidently cut myself with a knife while cooking. Usually I could push through that and the urge to cut wouldn't be too strong, but recently my depression has been coming back and I had a bad week. Tonight the urge got to me and I broke...I cut myself 8 times... They are very minor cuts, but the point is I messed up all of my hard work. I thought I was done with this, I thought I was strong, and I thought my life was finally getting better... I'm worried about what people will think, I don't want to see my friends and family cry for my faults.

[SilentCutter]

It happens to a lot of us. What made you cut yourself?

[Perfectly Flawed]

My depression getting worse, how good that accident the day before felt, pressure from parents, family arguements, and divorce threats. I was also alone all day when all I really needed was someone to talk to.

[SilentCutter]

What made you stop cutting yourself, and what kept you from doing it?

[xXl0sth0peXx]

I know relapsing sucks, especially after such a long period of time. The important thing is to see what you did, and what you didn't do. A year and a half is amazing! Relapse is part of recovery, and it will definitely only make you stronger. I know you can pick yourself back up and make an even bigger streak. <3

Stay strong, always here if you need someone to talk to. :)

[Perfectly Flawed]

What made you stop cutting yourself, and what kept you from doing it?

I stopped because I was so tired of dealing with the psychologists, and my parents were threatening to send me to a mental hosipital. My life was getting better for a while and I felt like I didn't need it to get through with my problems.

[SilentCutter]

Relapsing sucks, and sometimes its hard to avoid but we're in this together. You have the strength to get passed this. It may take awhile, but if you want, you can do it. Its wont be easy but its possible. Ur on a site with people who want to help. I cant speak for everyone on this site but Im a good listener. You dont know me but if you like I can be someone you can talk to. No one should go through something alone