the worst cut ever!

[CryingEye666]

okay if anyone would care to listen i got a story (at least skim through it if you don't want to read it all)

not recently, but a while ago, maybe some time last year, it was night time and i cut myself. ill tell u, thats the worst time i ever cut myself,
and i think its the last time i cut myself since then.
because that night when i cut myself,
i looked at the blood on my shirt, and i was bleeding pretty bad.
i felt all dizzy and woozy and lightheaded.
and my eye sight vision got all blurred and it felt i was gona pass out or faint.
i was scared to death , literally.
when my vision got all blurry, it felt as my life was just slipping away.
i really thought i was going to die or something really bad was gona happen.
i tried falling asleep, but i was shivering it felt like.
and i think it was summer time or something!!
how couldi be so damn cold in the summer?
but i was shivering so bad, and i was so scared.
and even though i dont know if to believe in god or not, i was still praying to him i dont know why.
i was praying to him that i would live.
and yes obviously i did live.
but it was the most scariest moment ever.

has that happened to anyone? (any part of my story besides the actual cutting part)
anyone have any ideas why you think i felt the way i felt?
any comments, or anything?
thanks

[MoveAlong]

man, I'm so sorry! That's awful :( Although it was so good that you were scared, so you won't do something so awful again! You need to stop this, because cutting is life threatening, and that's why it's so scary to know that someone self harms!
Have you thought about telling someone, like a doc or therapist about this? I've read a lot of what you've posted, and it sounds like you should get some help if you haven't already.

[CryingEye666]

ive "met" with a psycho-logist before for a stupid reason. and i had to take a test to see how i was "doing". so i didnt fail, but she thinks im depressed. my parents are being cool with me not sending me to a alternative school like the psycho-logist suggested. for me, if i see a psycho-logist, it puts on more stress and more hate towards my life

[MoveAlong]

Maybe you don't need an alternate school (as long as they aren't hurting or abusing you at your school)
And from what I've read, you do sound depressed. no offense :whoops:

[CryingEye666]

lol its fine
but ill never forget that night
ill always remember it like it was an hour ago (cause i cant remember a day a go lol - so i cant say: i remember it like yesterday)

[Sad_but_ok1]

I cut my self once It all started at school I was in Art as an elective and
my so called Best friend wanted to date the guy i liked Only
cause I liked him and he said YES I couldnt belive it So I was really mad
and I took a compass and cut my arm it didnt feel good it just let out alot
of stress so I kept doing it as the day went on I was sitting at lunch and
My arm started 2 bleed really bad thru my really heavy sweat shirt and I was talking 2 my other friend and she asked why my arm was bleeding and I said I bumped it on somethin and the Guy beside me which was the guy I liked picked up my arm and slip my sweat shirt up and he screamed at me and said why r u doin this and I said why dont u ask her! and I ran 2 the bathroom and I had my pocket nife and ripped my hole arm open and I fainted on the floor and The girl came in and called the guy and he carried me 2 the nurse and the called my teacher they didnt call my mom though and then my teacher did and My mom called the Meadows and said If I didnt stop I would kill my self and I went 2 the meadows 2 get better and It worked it scared the shit out of me and I stoped and I have tried 2 not hang out with those people I thanked them for telling the teacher and helping me get help and didnt talk 2 them ever again.

[CryingEye666]

WOW
dude
you're lucky
hehh very lucky

[Antares]

Well it seems that the loss of blood was too fast and too great becuase those are common symptoms of blood loss. and youre very lucky you didnt sleep becuase i think you could have went into a coma. and youre also lucky you didnt pass out. its never happened to me before but ive almost passed out in church and when i was really sick and started coughing but couldnt stop. thats it but youre really lucky and try not to put yourself in danger like that again! okay :D

[CryingEye666]

haha ill remember that next time i cut (or if i dont cut thats much better)

[Sad_but_ok1]

WOW
dude
you're lucky
hehh very lucky

I guess goin 2 the meadows didnt help me I had a BAD day today I ran into my ex and his girlfriend and I cut my self bad I am in the hospital I carry my
Labtop every where I lost alot of blood and I have 2 go 2 the meadows 4 a while maybe a couple weeks or a year good thing they r letting me keep my labtop.

[northskater110]

well at least its good that u stopped

[Chaos_and_Disorder]

I remember one time where I took it way too far. I didn't stop cutting. I just flipped out because my blade wasn't cutting deep enough and I just slide it across my leg over and over. The blood wouldn't stop and my mind raced in fast mode. I think that's when I started to understand it got worse and I needed to pull away for a while.

[TheLostGirls]

I blacked out when I reopend a cut on my hip yesterday. Freaked out too.

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