Cliff.

[Princess Ariel]

I constantly feel like i'm on the edge of a cliff. That if someone where to nudge me i'd fall. I'm tired. I'm just so tired. People say I deserve the pain. That I did something to deserve having a life this messed up. I keep reaching out to people but they always turn me away. I'm tired of being used. I'm tired of being neglected. I just feel that unless I bluntly say how shitty I feel, everyone thinks i'm fine. It only means i'm feeling more shitty then you can imagine. I keep getting told that I can get better but I haven't seen any progress. I thought I was getting better a couple weeks ago. But I relapsed. Hard. and no one knew. I don't know who I can trust. The people who I trust, abuse it. I'm wasting away my lunch hours crying in the staircase. I don't have any friends anymore, they all judge me. I'm trying. I know it doesn't sound like I am.. but i'm truly so fucking tired. My teachers and my mum think this is all because of the passing of my dad.. but it's not. It's my own fault.

I'm always giving out help and advice to friends, but I can never get any back. When I try to get help. I'm called an attention seeker.. this and that.
I hate showing my face at school. Surrounded by all these skinny pretty girls. then there's me. This fat chick. This ugly chick. This person with no friends.

[StoppingTime]

I know it's hard, but don't think so badly about yourself. I do the same thing. I always think, "I'm not as good as them, if only I could be..." and things like that. But really, you are. You are an amazing individual who is just that, individual.
Of course, you don't deserve this pain; nobody does. There is no reason that you should have to suffer because there are bad things happening in your life. Anybody who tells you otherwise really don't know what they are saying, and don't deserve your time.

People don't understand that just because you helped them means that you don't want help yourself. And you shouldn't feel bad about that. You deserve the help just as much as they do. Don't think that just because you're stuck with a not-so-great group of people, that you aren't worth anyones time or effort. Because you are.

Relapsing isn't the end; it doesn't mean you failed. It means that you are on the road to recovery. You don't see people (prepare for boring analogy...) playing a round of golf, and each time, getting a hole in one. It's the same for you. Almost nobody doesn't have a time during recovery when they slip. It's bound to happen, and that's OK.
The trick is to not let it keep you down. You are strong, and you can get through this. Don't get hung up on little bumps like this, you don't need it weighing you down.

Of course you are trying. There will always be those immature people who say that you brought this all on yourself, and you could stop if you really wanted to. Those people don't know what you've gone through. They are the insecure ones, worrying that they'll look bad if they try to help you. If you don't think they are helping, and are only using you, then they aren't worth your time.
None of this is your own fault. Don't blame yourself for things you didn't do. They didn't happen because of you. You're just stuck in the middle, but you'll be strong enough to pull through.

You aren't that fat, ugly chick. And trust me, I'm sure the majority of the girls are thinking that they are the fat ugly ones.
Most people judges themselves harshly, (myself included), but don't let it get in the way of the amazing person that you are.
If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm always here. :hug:

[Error 404]

Well...ill just say few things.

People that judge and neglect you, they aren't worth your attention.Ignore them.Who cares what they think?Important thing is what YOU think.

You say you're fat.Pff big deal.I mean really, do not worry about it.I mean, once you start feeling better, run, exercise, and so on, of it bothers you.But it ain't really important.And just cause you think you're fat, doesn't mean you are.And even if you are, so what?

Friends well, in RL at the moment, for over last 2 years, i have no one.But ones who don't stay by your side when you need them, aren't really your friends.And not worry, life is long, and you will find true friends, who aren't morons or anything like that.

And...i just wanna give you some advice that I've gotten from somebody, which helped me quite a bit.

If you were meant to die - you would.Simple as that.And all the problems and everything, you just have to keep fighting and solve them.It won't be like this forever, you know?Things might seem really bad at the moment, but it will get better.And just because you're alive, it must mean you have some purpose in life.Think about it.

[Ryhanna]

I'd like to say that I feel I can relate to you, but that would just be ignorant.

Don't let these hard times, and uncaring people get you down. People in real life might not want to help you, but we do. We'll always be here for you. We're not here to judge you, only help.

Relapsing isn't the worst thing in the world. It's okay to feel weak, and it's okay to feel scared. It's okay to feel whatever the hell you're feeling. You can work on getting back on track. It's important that you try to think positively of yourself. It's really not fair on you to percieve yourself so negatively. You seem like a genuinely good person, and I hate seeing you struggle like this.