I've got it all here.

[Aceso]

Blades, multiple types of pills, I've had so much alcohol in the past 24 hours I'll be just fine. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna go. I want to do this so badly, and now there's nothing to stop me. At all. I fucked the one thing important to me and I'm a complete mess. I'm no good for anything, I'm useless.
I don't even want to die, I just can't take it anymore. It's just like cutting, I have urges to take these pills. I kind of hope that maybe one day I'll damage myself enough so that I can just sleep and sleep and never have to worry again. I don't want to be who I am anymore and nothing I've tried has worked.
I don't know what to do. I'm literally fighting myself. Please help me, I'm a mess. :(

[Wayne92]

Please don't do this. What's going on?

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Don't do this, its not a solution :/.Talk/write about your problems, get it out, and you will feel a bit better, talking helps...

Every problem can be solved...just don't do this :(

[heza]

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[Aceso]

Don't do this, its not a solution :/.Talk/write about your problems, get it out, and you will feel a bit better, talking helps...

Every problem can be solved...just don't do this :(

I'm trying. It's not getting any better. :(
20x the recommended dose of my mood stabilizers, 10 allergy tablets and 7.75g of paracetamol. I want more, but at the same time I don't. I'm such a mess. :(

Hannah! Hang in there! Do not give in! You know you don't want to, you have so much to live for and so much to do!

You're only young like me, and we have so much going for us, think of everything you have to come in life! Boyfriends/girlfriends, marriage, children, a career owning a house, making friends, making more friends, driving a car and most importantly having fun!!

Don't end it! Because once you die, thats it! Nothing, ever again, just nothing! You don't want that! So hang in there!

We have all done really stupid things in our lives, trust me I should know! I have so many things that I regret doing, and really wish I hadn't, and I have been in situations where I have felt just as you have, and by being in that situation, I can tell you with all my heart and all honesty, it will get so much better! I promise! You will get through this tough time.

Please don't let it get to you! Think of all your friends and family that would so badly miss you! You have us, your fellow VT friends here too!

You're so beautiful. You would be too much of a loss to this world. Without you your friends and families lives will feel empty, and if you have ever experienced a loss in your family, you will know what I mean, and you wouldn't want to place that feeling on others.

Hang in there!!! <3

I'm here for ya, we all are :) <3

Contact me if you wish to talk :)

Thanks so much, I know you're right but in the mindset I'm in right now, I can't see a way out. I'm really trying to resist so badly, but I can't even sleep because even that haunts me. I feel like I'm going crazy. :( Right now I really don't feel beautiful, I feel like a mess. A horrible, terrible mess that doesn't deserve anything good. I've tried so hard for so long and I mess it up in the space of a couple of hours. :(

[heza]

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[Fiction]

Hannah, listen, I understand the urges to take those pills. Completely understand. But they can be fought.

Life gets better. I know that seems a completely cliche thing to say, but the reason it's said so much is because it's true. You have your whole life in front of you, things are going to change. Really, there's no possible way at all that it could stay the same is there? You're going to get older, leave home, go to university or get a job, whatever you decide to do. There is no way your life can stay the same as it is now, and in that, there's a huge chance it can improve.

I know how difficult it is, i've been there, but for me it has got better. There is always hope.

As for the amount of pills you've taken I suggest going to hospital i'm afraid.

[Breakeven]

Plz dont do it , its not worth it , u just feel confused i dont want u to hurt ur self , im sure ur good person , things get better and im always here if u need someone to talk to , STAY STRONG <3

[Aceso]

Hey everyone, just to say I've let my parents know - I'm pretty sure I'll be alright. Thank you so much for the support. I don't feel much better right now but I'm still around I guess. I feel like such a let down. :/
Thank you for caring everyone <3