Dimentio
May 27th, 2012, 02:11 AM
When i say i am going to not do something i don't do it, That is why when i said i will leave TV i would leave it but things are getting bad again now and i need someone, Like i am leaving college, I got all these places meetings for different reasons i got to go to, 4 Nights in two weeks i have not slept, I am eating less and starving more, I am going unconsious more often, And mum had to buy two packets of Plasters especially for me because ia m shredding my fingers ot pieces because i bite them so much.
I am up most of the night crying my eyes out and the anxiety attacks are getting ridiculuos, I am to scared to leave the house, The bullying is worse then ever and my friends keep nagging at me because i am showing no/little emotions lately.
And one more thing that keeps crossing my mind which i hate as i nearly did all this at 13 but one person made me stop but now their no longer here and everyone else in my situation would have caved in under the pressure but i haven't yet, And those things are smoking, Drinking, Cutting, And the last one i cannot say, I never have nore ever wanted to do any of those things but apparently they relax you and i need that more then ever now.
Like my mum used to be the person i go to, Now she don't believe me about Paul and she has gave up feeding me, I am such a fussy eater she has left it now if i cannot decide what i want i starve, Most i have gone so far is skipping dinner and lunch in three days and same for snacks.
And Daniel, He is playing with my heart more then ever lately, I am not sure how much longer i will last.....
I am up most of the night crying my eyes out and the anxiety attacks are getting ridiculuos, I am to scared to leave the house, The bullying is worse then ever and my friends keep nagging at me because i am showing no/little emotions lately.
And one more thing that keeps crossing my mind which i hate as i nearly did all this at 13 but one person made me stop but now their no longer here and everyone else in my situation would have caved in under the pressure but i haven't yet, And those things are smoking, Drinking, Cutting, And the last one i cannot say, I never have nore ever wanted to do any of those things but apparently they relax you and i need that more then ever now.
Like my mum used to be the person i go to, Now she don't believe me about Paul and she has gave up feeding me, I am such a fussy eater she has left it now if i cannot decide what i want i starve, Most i have gone so far is skipping dinner and lunch in three days and same for snacks.
And Daniel, He is playing with my heart more then ever lately, I am not sure how much longer i will last.....