i don't even know.

[Navi]

here i am, asking for help. :\

Sorry in advance if I don't make any sense.
figured i'd try here before I would actually go off and do something stupid. I'm that close.

i know that a ton of you have it worse than me, but i don't think i can take anymore stress and other shit. I'm not gonna bore you with the story.

over the past few days, I've wanted nothing other than wanting to die. whatever it be, I just want to be dead. It would just be such a great burden off everyone's shoulders with me gone.

So, like, i've done almost everything I can to try to make myself better, and i feel like I only screw up worse than i previously was. What can i do to get myself back to the way i usually am, before I end up hurting myself?

thanks in advance :)
(and sorry if you couldn't read this. i can't really think straight)

[Fractured Silhouette]

Well you might want to start by telling someone how you feel and getting some support. I'm sure you're not that much of a burden and getting stuff off your shoulders might make you feel better.

Helping people out is a good way to make you feel better about yourself. But yes, definitley find some support if you're worried you're going to hurt yourself.

[StoppingTime]

Brice, I know we haven't really spoken much, but myself, and anyone you ask, will say that you should be here.
It doesn't matter how worse other people's lives may be, because there is no comparison between the two. You are going through your problems, they are going through theirs. We all have completely different lives, and cannot imagine each others troubles, seeing as we are not them. (If that makes any sense)

People don't want you gone. There are people who care about you. You deserve to be here, and you've got a purpose, whatever that may be. Don't ruin an amazing individual like yourself over bad times. They'll end. You'll come out the other side.
Just believe that you should be here, because that's the truth. Nobody deserves not to be here because they think they are the source of problems, trouble, and make others lives (there should be an apostrophe somewhere in there...) worse. Because you don't. There is nobody who wants you dead. Trust me on that.

If you can talk to anyone, that would probably be best, even if it's just over VT. Of course, face-to-face would be best, but, as I'm sure you know, it isn't that easy.
Good luck, and just remember that you should be here. There is nothing you can say that would make me think otherwise.