They don't want me, so why should I stay?

[CleoP]

So yeah. Never really thought I'd be posting on this board, but I'm here.
No one gives a crap about me anymore, I'm not even sure if they ever did. I'm so sick of people using me and then not paying attention to me unless they need something from me. I try so hard to be nice, to work hard, to please people, and everyone just points out everything what's wrong with me. They don't even say thank you anymore. My family only talks to me when they need me, like to do chores or watch my brother, etc. I have a few friends but they're always distant, never there when I really need them. My best friend is so busy with his stuff that he hardly ever talks to me anymore. Then he yells at me when I say I needed someone but I didn't tell him. I feel like I'm a huge nuisance to everyone and they don't want me. I get 3.5+ GPAs in school and I'm in college and I'm only 15 years old, but no one ever tells me that I do a good job, even though I work my butt off. I'm mentally unstable most of the time, so no one wants to associate with me, for the most part. I can't be myself with anyone because they don't like the real me. I'm a little autistic, and a lot of social stuff goes right over my head, I don't like talking to people, and I do anyway because I need people to stay sane. But no one really likes me, not enough to actually try to be my friend. I want to do a lot with my life, I want to go to college and double-major, and be amazing, but I don't know if I'm good enough, and I don't know how to get over this. My best friend said I need a support system, he knows I have issues with depression, suicide, etc., I don't want to talk to people because they judge me. So basically I'm a time bomb. I think I can control myself, because I know I don't want to die, but who really knows?

Anyway, sorry for the huge rant/wall of text. I have no idea what to do or who to turn to, and I feel like everyone would be happier if I was just gone. Not even dead, just gone and they didn't have to deal with me anymore.
-C

[death132]

im mentaly unstable to im unwanted no one cares tho

you have more to live for dont quite

[Princess Ariel]

Firstly, :hug:
Secondly.. People do care for you hun, just because it's not shown. Doesn't mean it doesn't exist. The people that keep on tearing you down aren't real friends they're just using you for your awesomeness and are jealous of you. Just because you aren't getting told you're doing a good job shouldn't mean anything. Screw what other people think. They are unworthy of your love and compassion.
Meet some better friends and tell them what's been going on. Try and meet some people like you, whether it's on VT or in real life. There are people like you out there. You just have to keep looking. No one would me happy if you were gone and if they are. They weren't real friends to begin with,
Chin up hun, you can overcome this.
I'm here for you. I believe in you and i'm always open to listen.

[commikid]

Well I would just like to say that although I have never met any of you and I dont know what your day to day problems are etc I can still say that you should not feel alone or unwanted. I genuanly feel sorry for people that say they feel unwanted or unloved because I have been there myself and I wouldn't even be looking at this thread if I didn'T show an intrest towards you :D ,, everyone wants to do good in life and get the best that they can but it's just such a shame that in this day and age what acctually is the "best" you can do? Is wealth the key to happiness or is it love? Is it knowledge or is it the latest tech? everything moves so fast and everyone has to have the latest thing to be happy. Just take a moment to think about how great you acctually are! There will only ever be one of you and thats it your gone forever, so dont doubt yourself because there will be people out there that despite what you look like or what you act like will want to know you for who you are. Its just finding them thats the hard bit. If your feeling alone or want to talk and this goes for anyone who may read this then just drop me a message or come have a chat :) I will listen!

[Fuzzyevil]

@Ceolp? Cheer up! Buddie! Leave the world! They are nothing but a piece of shit!

[baruch6132]

ok, you need to go through a big step in life. i was in the exact same situation as you until this past year. you have to realize that you mean something. I may not be autistic, but i have ADHD, visiual and finemotor processing disabilites, as well as a migrain problem and a need for melatonin. My older brother helped me realize that I do mean something. You need to realize that everyone does care about you in every way. They excpect the best possible solution from you and they do thank you. They thank you when ever they see you. It probably puts a smile on there face. I'm not joking here. People rely on you. thats why they ask you for stuff because they know that YOU are the only one capable of doing what they need done. They recognize your talents and use them and by doing that, they are caring about you. They thank you. even in silence. They thank you.

[Klaudiax]

People will always judge you, you can't control that. I'm sure your family and friends care about you even though they might now show it, have you spoke to them about it? I might sound rude asking this but have you made the effort as well? I have bpd and when it comes to things like that I'm pretty fcked. I really suggest you do see a psychologist or a psychiatrist because they can help you especially if you feel like you're 'mentally unstable'. But if you're thinking about suicide then really it's not worth it.