ugh.

[ArtistInNeed]

Its been a very very long time since I cut, atleast 2 or 3 years. The urge still hits me though..it sucks. I sometimes wish I could go back to when it was easy to hide the scars, when I didnt have a bf worried about me, or I didnt have a job where I had to wear short sleeves.. I miss the feeling. The moment. It scares me that I want this but at the same time I'm glad I feel this way, like maybe it'll help me to get the courage to do so. I miss the therapist and having someone there. I could talk to my bf but its different talking to him. I need someone unbiased. *sigh* how did I ever end up like this?

[Ambrosia]

I'll start out by saying this, we are always here and we are always unbiased. If you ever need to talk, you can PM me, Jo, Val, any of us, or any of the members you find trustworthy. We want nothing more than to be that helpful hand, that shoulder for you to lean on.

Perhaps you can start seeing your therapist again. I'm sure your boyfriend would understand. Explain to him how you feel, what bothers you. If it's a healthy relationship he should be there for help.

It's been said that once you self harm, you can quit, but you will never lose that urge. It's just something that comes with the territory. You just have to have that will power to fight it off. Say to yourself, "I am strong, I don't need this!"

Good luck!! :)