xXoblivionXx
May 21st, 2012, 04:08 PM
This is just something that I wrote today during school...
I can't do this anymore. I CAN'T. I need to run away or just leave this life. I can't live like this anymore. It hurts so much, waking up. My parents are making me feel worse and worse about mysql. My head hurts so much. I tried to OD on pain killers last night but it didn't work. When I woke up at 3am I was so mad I couldn't believe it. So I went downstairs and took 4 more pills, that still didn't work :/ So here I am writing all of this down because no one wants to hear what I have to say. I want to end this because no one cares, I don't care. I'm weak and I can't do this anymore. I don't understand how other people get through this, depression and cutting. They say that this makes you stronger. It doesn't make you stronger, it makes you weak. It takes away any innocence that you have, along with your courage and hope. It leaves you weak, vulnerable, and begging for the pain to go away. I just don't know what to do...
I can't do this anymore. I CAN'T. I need to run away or just leave this life. I can't live like this anymore. It hurts so much, waking up. My parents are making me feel worse and worse about mysql. My head hurts so much. I tried to OD on pain killers last night but it didn't work. When I woke up at 3am I was so mad I couldn't believe it. So I went downstairs and took 4 more pills, that still didn't work :/ So here I am writing all of this down because no one wants to hear what I have to say. I want to end this because no one cares, I don't care. I'm weak and I can't do this anymore. I don't understand how other people get through this, depression and cutting. They say that this makes you stronger. It doesn't make you stronger, it makes you weak. It takes away any innocence that you have, along with your courage and hope. It leaves you weak, vulnerable, and begging for the pain to go away. I just don't know what to do...