MemoriesLost
May 19th, 2012, 10:53 AM
I wasn't 100% sure where to put this, but I thought this was the most ideal. My best friend just got back together with her ex. I am happy for her and all, she seems really happy, but I'm having an insanely hard time. First, it was fine. She would still hang out with me even if he was there and we would still hang out and stuff, but things are starting to change. she's becoming distant. The first thing that happened that hinted that they don't want me around may or may not have been an accident. I was linking arms with her and walking back from lunch and her boyfriend flippedthefuckout and grabbed my wrist and moved me away from her so he could hold hands with her. They both just laughed and said it was a joke. My wrist is fractured. Things went on like this with me rarely getting to even walk near her, let alone talk to her in person. It's still going on. Earlier today, she told me I was annoying. She just straight up said it. I told her that her what he did to my wrist and her exact words were "He didn't mean to, and you started it." I feel so craptastic. I don't want to go to lunch with them or anything now.... I don't feel welcome or wanted. She's not talking to me now and I really don't know what I did. I will admit one thing, though. I am jealous. I am jealous that everybody is taking his side and that I never get to hang out with one of the people I care most about on the planet. This whole thing has been going on for weeks. I had several breakdowns during them. At night I'll be thinking about it or something and I will just lose it and cry. I only cut once. Even though I'm 'fine' now, I feel like I'm detaching. I'm not talking to family, friends, or anybody. I feel alone. I just want to know if anybody here has advice. I really don't know what to do. Thanks.