CAMHS, depression, meeting, medication? A way out?

[rosey1228]

Hey,
Well I go to CAMHS and saw a psyciatrist that said I had depression, it's been a while since I saw her, as she referred me to this other team. But like an incident happened at school where I self harmed, and nearly overdosed, and now I have another appointment to see the phyciatrist person. But I think it's to do with putting me on medication, but I don't think I am that bad. when I saw the team I see normally, they asked if I could keep myself safe, I was like I'll try. But it's a struggle. What would happen if next time they asked me I said no. And I'm really worried about this appointment it's with my mum, and it's really hard to talk about stuff in front of her, as she judges me, and takes the pee outa me afterwards. Can I just walk out of the meeting if I have had enough? Will they let me talk alone without kept mum. Can I say no to medication?
I really don't know what to do?
Help!

[FullyAlive]

You should be able to talk alone without your mother present although she may be there at first. You can say no to medication although temporarily it could help, it could you a bit of a break to try and figure out your problems with the medication acting as a sort of buffer from you feeling too low.

As for walking out of the meeting I've done it and I really wouldn't recommend it, at the end of the day its not productive and just makes you seem evasive and awkward. At least try and give some answers if not many.

Saying you aren't sure if you can keep yourself safe is a big thing to admit to and a good step as for what will happen it depends how much of a risk they think you are to yourself. They could just ask you to be supervised at home and warn your mother, they could give you more regular appointments ie. daily or worst comes to worst and they can admit you but they try not to do that.

[rosey1228]

I cut at school, they sent me to hospital because it was really deep! I met camhs there, and there was like two choices hospital, or like a follow up thingy like everyday. I didnt want to go to hospital so I chose the other option, but I have to see them tomorrow, so I don't know what's going to happen? I'm like we'll worried anyone know what I should do? I'm not that bad.