Why me?

[Texas warrior]

The girl that I loved, just left for Germany, I won't see her for at least 4 months. I already am so love sick that I think I am going to puke. And sense I am moving I am not sure if we will ever have a stabell friendship. I feel like my soul is bleeding, why me? I am a mess, I am think if I don't cool of soon I might do something I regret. As soon as my parents are asleep I am getting drunk off my ass just stop the pain. I hope some one on here knows what I am going though.

P.S. sorry for how poorly written this is like I said I am a mess.