In a rut

[therunaway]

I'm in a rut, I am 100% straight, I think. I was with a girl for 9 months last year, and we ended up not lasting forever like we planned; big surprise there. Anyway, I haven't been able to date anyone since then, I've tried, and tried. Does this make me asexual, because at this point, I've given up, and don't want to date anymore. If this is in the wrong section, please move it. Any input is appreciated. Oh and if it helps, the reason why I'm so stuck on the ex is because she gave me oral, and it just isn't that that makes me miss her, it was just her, and her presence made me happy; we don't talk at all now.

[LatinaVivit]

You're still young! You have plenty of time to find another person!

[therunaway]

Yes, I know! But I'm not interested, and honestly, I don't think I will be again. I've already broke my mothers heart; telling her I'm not going to any school dances (i.e- Prom, Formal) and I was being honest, I'd rather be home, or out on the street, passed out, waiting on the asylum to be called, I honestly find myself to have a demon inside, but that is another topic, but anyway I broke my moms heart by telling her that, as she lost four other kids, and almost lost me and she was completely dumbfounded.

[StoppingTime]

There's no reason to get so hung up on the past, especially for a reason like that.
She clearly wasn't right for you, and depending on your age, you may not have been ready to be in a serious relationship.
There are plenty of other girls out there. If you want to take a break for a little while from dating, fine. But you don't seem asexual to me, rather, just too tied to the past.

[therunaway]

I wish people here understood that, everyone thinks I'm "stupid" or "gay" because I haven't been in a stable relationship in a while. I agree with you. :)

[ImCoolBeans]

You're what, 13? To be honest, you're going to get over it. Saying that you aren't going to prom at 13 because of a heartbreak is a little silly. I used to think that I wasn't good enough for anybody and that I wasn't going to go anywhere, but I realized that I'm so young and just being down like that doesn't get you anywhere. Keep an open mind and an open heart, and things will work themselves out. If you miss your ex girlfriend based on the fact that she gave you head, then it probably isn't as much of a heartbreak as you think it may be. If another girl had given you that blow job, and things had happened similarly, would you be feeling this way? Would you be saying a lot of these same things? I think that's a strong possibility, and you've just got to think to yourself, is the feeling really legitimate?