I need help, but I can't tell anyone.

[Aceso]

I feel like I'm going crazy.
Tonight I cut again. That's normal for me. What isn't normal is when I cut the roof/underneath my tongue and back of my mouth so nobody will see it and so I won't be able to eat.
I physically felt sick before I did it. I didn't want to do it, but I had to. My mind had set itself on I had to. I'm so scared of myself and what I've done. I don't even feel depressed, just like a ghost. Dead. I don't feel anything at all.
I need help.
I can't even deny it. I seriously need help.
I see me counsellor on wednesday, but how can I tell her about something like this? How can I tell her about the near suicide attempts. I can't take more time off school, because of my exams. If I go into the hospital I was in last year, I'd rather be dead.
I don't know what to do. I'm so scared, this needs to end. I need some help, but fucking hell, I don't know how to ask for it without sounding crazy.
Please, please someone help me.

[xXoblivionXx]

I don't think you are crazy Hannah. The great thing is that you are not in denial, you want help but you can't bring yourself to get it. You seem like a great person. But your life is just really complicated and you can't cope with it. See if you can go talk to your consoler tomorrow. I know it is hard and may be a bit awkward but he/she won't judge you, they want to help. I want to help. If you ever want to talk message me. Stay strong Hannah.

[Wayne92]

You're not going crazy Hannah, although I understand the feeling. You're taking the right step by asking for help, when you talk to your counselor, tell exactly what's going on and your fear of going back to the hospital you went to before. Try to stay strong and if you need to talk to someone, I'm here.

[Mortal Coil]

You're not crazy, but you do need to trust your counselor. Ask her what the conditions of confidentiality are; she can't tell someone unless she has a duty of care. Also, I'm always here for you if you need anything :hug: