dajakesta10
May 13th, 2012, 05:24 PM
Right. I have posted a few things about this guy before, but now this is getting serious and it's the only thing i care about anymore. So, before anyone says anything, I understand that 15 is a young age to be experiencing true love. I get that it does sound completely ridiculous. But I have felt little gay crushes. I have felt friendly love. I have felt brother love, sister love, mother love and yes, even father love. But I have NEVER in my entire life, felt this way about ANYONE else. So yeah, he's not exactly what many would define as "attractive", but fuck you. He used to adore me. He once looked me in the eye and told me that he feared anything ever happening to me. He took me by the hand and practically told me he loved me. Why would I not think he did? Whenever he is NOT around, I make myself physically sick with worry. Earlier today I puked on a train, just thinking about something I had just learned. I was told, not even by him, my best friend going on boyfriend, that he was recently told that he has aspergers. While this turned out to not be fully true, it still made me vomit. Whenever I see him, or merely hear his name, my heart stops. I can't breath. It hurts so much to say goodbye to him. Whenever he leaves me I almost burst into tears. Well, he may be younger than me, by two years, in fact, but that doesn't mean I can't love him, does it? Anyway, onto the actual problem. So he recently told me that he wanted a relationship with me. I was ecstatic! I adore him with every ounce of my existence, the thought of having him for my own was just- I don't even know, it was great. But a few days into this, I felt like maybe he wasn't quite as caring as he wished to let on. Don't get me wrong, I understand that when you're only 13, you shouldn't be made to make these life changing decisions, like becoming gay/bisexual, but he knows that I love him, and he knows that I wouldn't do anything to hurt him/make him feel awkward. What should I do? Should I go with it, see how it goes? Or just end it, give him time? Please help :/ :confused: