Since when was this ok?!

[Lizzlebob]

Since when was if okay to force your own daughter into a panic attack. What kind of mother are you when you know that your daughter has anxiety, depression, is prone to panic attacks, cuts and was at one point suicidal, and still continue to verbally abuse her? No she's not perfect, no she's not like you, but she's honestly trying her hardest to please you. And nothing's good enough! It never is. But that doesn't give you the right to pin her down in a chair, continue to scream in her face and make her feel trapped and unable to escape, and continuing to do so after she's sitting there crying, screaming, and trying desperately to get away. She kept telling you to stop, that you were forcing her into a panic attack, but you continued anyway, making it worse and worse with each passing minute. And you wonder why she bit you when you clamped your hand over her mouth to stop the screaming, to try and control her even more? That still doesn't give you the right to, not slap, but literally punch your daughter in the face. You wonder why your daughter is messed up? Really? Do you not understand that you're the reason she can't live a normal life?

And here's my secret. This all happened to me on Friday, and nobody believes me. The 6 new cuts on my wrist means nothing. Everybody continues to pretend that everything is freaking perfect, even though it's obvious that it's not. Please tell me that I'm not crazy, that this isn't okay. Because if this world has gone so far under to the point to where this is okay, I know I won't be able to mentally, emotionally, and physically handle the rest of my life. It would be easier to just end it now, before I get hurt even worse.....

[Desuetude]

No you're not crazy at all but this isn't okay, not even a little bit. None of this is your fault, okay? You've done nothing wrong and you are the victim here, she shouldm't be allowed to do that. However the rest of your life when you become old enough is yours, you can make the most of it and prove that you are stronger than everyone imagined.
Have you told anyone, talked to anyone? Because someone needs to be informed if she is constantly treating you like this. A family member or an adult you trust, phoning a helpline could even do some good, they'll listen to you. Please think about how much better things will be in the future because when you get away from here things should improve. You can get some proper support and have people that are really there for you and listen to you. Things don't have to stay like this.
If you need someone to talk to then you can come to me and I promise i'll try and help as best I can though if anything I will be there for you if you just need to vent or get something out but please go to someone, you can get through this. :hug:

[Lizzlebob]

No you're not crazy at all but this isn't okay, not even a little bit. None of this is your fault, okay? You've done nothing wrong and you are the victim here, she shouldm't be allowed to do that. However the rest of your life when you become old enough is yours, you can make the most of it and prove that you are stronger than everyone imagined.
Have you told anyone, talked to anyone? Because someone needs to be informed if she is contanatly treating you like this. A family member or an adult you trust, phoning a helpline could even do some good, they'll listen to you. Please think about how much better things will be in the future because when you get away from here things should improve. You can get some proper support and have people that are really there for you and listen to you. Things don't have to stay like this.
If you need someone to talk to then you can come to me and I promise i'll try and help as best I can though if anything I will be there for you if you just need to vent or get something out but please go to someone, you can get through this. :hug:
Thank you. You have no idea how much that means to me. Nobody is ever there for me, so I've stopped going to people about what happens. Thank you. I don't think you understand how much it means to me that someone even cared enough to read this, let alone respond.

[Desuetude]

Thank you. You have no idea how much that means to me. Nobody is ever there for me, so I've stopped going to people about what happens. Thank you. I don't think you understand how much it means to me that someone even cared enough to read this, let alone respond.
I really think talking to someone could help, things need to be sorted out because the more this carries on and the worse things get then the harder it is to get out of the half dug hole. I know it feels as though it wont do any good and that no one's there for you but if you let people in, people that could actually do something to help then things could start to improve.
Honestly it's no problem, like I said it's not like I can really do much apart from be there for you if you need someone. Lots of people will read this, sometimes people just don't know what to say to help. Stay strong and i'm not just saying this but please, if you feel like things are getting bad or you need to let something out, come to me or someone else on VT.

[Fractured Silhouette]

Please don't feel like your alone. Something very similer happened to me with my mother. She doesn't know about my anxiety though. Just please remember how pathetic your mother must be to treat you like that. Especially since she knows what's wrong. Other than that, just read what Nikki said. I probably didn't help at all, but I just thought I'd let you know that someones listening.

[Wiltedrose2394]

The best I can do is ask this:
How old are you???
And as soon as you turn eighteen and are able to, run like hell and never look back! !!

Don't let her make you feel like you are incapable. The best you can do is to make the most of yourself. Prove to her that you can survive despite what she's done to you.