DELETEACCOUNT
May 9th, 2012, 04:28 PM
Well firstly I'm relatively new to this forum and I'm really looking for some help and support here.
A small while back say two weeks my granny was taken to hospital she's all good now but she's 83 and my other granny is 77 and I have heavily developed a minor case of thanatophobia which is the fear of death, news of death and loosing someone close to you.
Since developing this I have been thinking of a life without them and even loosing my own parents that are only 41 & 46, I have also been scared about whether when I'm a pensioner I will feel leaving my family. Since this it's all I'm thinking about when I'm watching tv or lying in my bed.
Since then I have been spending much more time with my family and I have been getting on much better with my mum or dad (no arguing etc) which is obviously a good thing, however they don't know about this nd I don't want them to incase they begin to worry about their mums. I also fear that my granny's worry about leaving their families and processions behind.
I also can't watch the news a lot now as I get upset over some death or another and since the case is small I hope if it is 'dealt' with now it will be easier to forget and get back to my normal self, I don't want therapy or anything but simply some support and something to comfort myself and help me put this aside.
I when reading some threads on here get sometimes angry at people getting angry with parents and family because I think you only live once why would you want to fight with family because when they're gone they're gone, but I understand people have their reasoning.
Sorry for such along thread, anyone with advice or help?
A small while back say two weeks my granny was taken to hospital she's all good now but she's 83 and my other granny is 77 and I have heavily developed a minor case of thanatophobia which is the fear of death, news of death and loosing someone close to you.
Since developing this I have been thinking of a life without them and even loosing my own parents that are only 41 & 46, I have also been scared about whether when I'm a pensioner I will feel leaving my family. Since this it's all I'm thinking about when I'm watching tv or lying in my bed.
Since then I have been spending much more time with my family and I have been getting on much better with my mum or dad (no arguing etc) which is obviously a good thing, however they don't know about this nd I don't want them to incase they begin to worry about their mums. I also fear that my granny's worry about leaving their families and processions behind.
I also can't watch the news a lot now as I get upset over some death or another and since the case is small I hope if it is 'dealt' with now it will be easier to forget and get back to my normal self, I don't want therapy or anything but simply some support and something to comfort myself and help me put this aside.
I when reading some threads on here get sometimes angry at people getting angry with parents and family because I think you only live once why would you want to fight with family because when they're gone they're gone, but I understand people have their reasoning.
Sorry for such along thread, anyone with advice or help?