I am happy and I still think of SH?

[RazorTourniquet]

I am quite happy right now. I started to get good grades, my mother is now fine and none of my family members are giving me trouble anymore. Then why do I always, whatever I do, I think abut self harming. It's not like I need it, it's like I want it. It's been a week and a half since I'm free of SH and even most of my scars healed. But today I was in my classroom and I caught myself imaging how I burn my scars with hot wax etc. Why do I desire it so much :what::what:

[Harley Quinn]

You've been used to hurting yourself for so long, so naturally you're having withdrawal symptoms, because don't forget it's addictive. You'll probably notice you start thinking about less as time goes by, but no doubt it's always going to be in the back of your mind.